everyone else is recapping their summer...
well so class starts tomorrow...2 days a week not bad...just odd going back...well this summer went by fast...time flies when you're having fun? either way summer of 2005 is officially over. and im not sure how i feel about that...met a few cool new friends...hung out with old ones...made mistakes...went to chicago...got peirced...went to texas...sweated and slept on a leath couch with no blanket...went to flint MI and met really good people...came to some realizations about happiness...trying to cope with the fact that my 20th birthday is coming up in 5 days...half of me wants to get shitfaced but the other half just wants to be around people and have fun...it just scares the crap out of me that i will be 20...and that i have done nothing...or in my mind what i see as nothing...i still live at home...im horrible with money...i still have a lot of growing up to do...its hard though when society thinks of you as an adult and they expect you to know what you want to do with your life when half of them have no idea what they are doing with theirs...im tired of doing things to make other people happy...i need something constant and consistant in my life...