Mar 14, 2005 12:19
So i hardly ever cry--and i havent cried in like 4ever--i hate, even more, crying in front of people, especially at school. However, once a year i always have a break down. It drives me nuts but it never fails! 8th grade- broke down in joroes(sp) gym class. Cant remember 9th and 10th but i know they happened!!! They just obviously werent as tramatic as others-lol 11th grade- broke down in mrs. rivera's anatomy class. 12th grade-broke down in the middle of gillet's sr project speech. We were in the autitorium today and i dont know what came over me but i just started crying and i couldnt stop. I went to the bathroom-calmed myself-whitnie came in-started over again-calmed myself again--walked back to the auditorium to get my stuff-ms mcg wanted to know what was wrong-started crying again--calmed myself down again on the walk to student services--cried and calmed like 5 more times when everyone kept asking me wat was wrong. OMG it was so horrible. And the worse part is there is like no explanation at all. Im thinking its just stress-but i dont know over wat-my grades are great-my sr. project product is so encredibly close to being done-its not like im behind on that-school is practically over for srs. yesterday marked 2 months till our last day! I really dont know wats wrong w/me and ive laughed at myself multiple times today bc im so weird. Everyone kept asking me if i was on my period-which im not-it ended last week--but that made me laugh too--but i guess its logical, mood swings -n- all. But yea it was my yearly break down-that didnt make any since this time-and ive officially determined that i am massively strange!!!!! lol
Im at home now-took tylenol and ate in order to attempt to get rid of my headache-im gunna lay down and hopefully take a nap. Later im going to barnes and noble w/my mom to pick up hitchhikers guide to the galexy for english class, then go to old time pottery to get sum stuff for my moms room. That is like my new favorite store-it has anything and everything u could ever want need or imagine for designing! Its so exciting! lol
It was so pretty this mornin and it randomly started pouring! The sky got black and now its raining-weird. I guess it kinda fits my day tho! lol k thats all-im off to nap! xoxo
~*Michelle*~
02.22.04 <3
The whole time i was crying all i wanted were my friends-1st i wanted keith, then stephanie, then amelia, then like any number of ppl...alex, liz, whitnie..just sumone to talk to and help me stop crying!
I saw whitnie and liz and they talked to me for a lil bit-and i really appreciated that guys-so thanx bunches.
I realized how much i really hate not having steph and keith go to school w/me anymore. They know me so well and always know wat to say or do to make me laugh or feel better. I miss them. And i see them like every 2 weeks so its not bad-but i miss having them on a day to day basis to talk to and hang out w/. I dont like growing up...