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Average eight hours a day five days a week with the girl im crazy about and the one chance i get to ask her the question that has been filling up my dreams and thoughts, I go and blow it. NOT anymore. the next time i see her no matter who is there i am just gonna set it up and ask her that question because i cannot sleep at night without knowing. i went and blew it. alone in my car on the way to her house, talking like we always do and i get the chance to ask and it goes right out the window. im tired of not being able to sleep, im tired of thinking so much, im Sick And Tired of being so lonely, wasting my life, becoming so useless to those around me. someone please tell me ten good reasons why you need me around. 10 DAMN GOOD reasons to keep me alive. i really want to know. if not ten than five or even ONE. i have nothing to live for RIGHT NOW, nothing to accomplish, the only reason i wake up in the morning is because i want to get one more chance to look into her eyes. But i cant sleep knowing that she will never look back, a small glance into my eyes and shes gone, back into the real world, i want her to be with me in our own world existing only when our eyes meet and our gaze is held. GOD made me this way, he made me learn and experience what love, hate, pain, lonliness, and every single emotion that someone has endured so early in my life, he is making me suffer and all i can do is pray to him for salvation. it hurts to know that you are not wanted Anywhere. Anymore.