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To eddie....
I met you over 4 years ago you were there at the place were everyone met del taco. I believe you were with neven micheal and jad i think terry and jerry. Skating was your thing back then and i was just there for the show. I dont know how but we became friends and i dont know after a while we just didnt talk. Maybe a hello or a what up but not anything past that. Then summer and there was del once agen reuniting even those who swore they would never speek. Senior year is were i REALLY MET YOU! How can i say this i fell inlove with you... to this day i would do anything for you. Defend you and even after that fight we had about stupid prom stuff we still were there for each other. Why is it that im still not your faveret. Why is it that after all the things i do for you, times im there for you im still not part of you. I feel so alone now a days and i think that with you gone im going to be that emo kid that i always dreaded to be. That emo kid that i always made fun of. Im sorry for all the times i made you feel guilty for feeling the way you do. Im sorry for my actions tonight, im sorry for the stupid things i say. Sorry for being so honest that it hurts. Sorry that im that lonely friend that has never really felt that love that you clame to have. Im so sorry because i know you love me and i just wish that i wasnt here arround you to make you feel like you have failed me in some way because you havent. I love you so much that i wish i just excepted that im second if not third best. That dream, our dream will come true. When that day happens ill be complete ill be happy and what ever happens wont matter because you will be there. Why is it that it afects me to know that you were with someone else im to attached and i hope that in away this will be for the best ill have time to gatter my thoughts and to just run away from my self, my owne emotions that just screw me up. Ill be here when you come back ill be a call away when you cant do it anymore and if you need me to brake you out ill put my self out on the line. Remember who i am that devoted friend that you left behind that would rather be alone for the rest of her life then to lose you!
This is for all the times you said you werent important that you said you didnt matter what you dont know is that you matter to me.....
with every single last tear that is left
i love you
-jess
I met you over 4 years ago you were there at the place were everyone met del taco. I believe you were with neven micheal and jad i think terry and jerry. Skating was your thing back then and i was just there for the show. I dont know how but we became friends and i dont know after a while we just didnt talk. Maybe a hello or a what up but not anything past that. Then summer and there was del once agen reuniting even those who swore they would never speek. Senior year is were i REALLY MET YOU! How can i say this i fell inlove with you... to this day i would do anything for you. Defend you and even after that fight we had about stupid prom stuff we still were there for each other. Why is it that im still not your faveret. Why is it that after all the things i do for you, times im there for you im still not part of you. I feel so alone now a days and i think that with you gone im going to be that emo kid that i always dreaded to be. That emo kid that i always made fun of. Im sorry for all the times i made you feel guilty for feeling the way you do. Im sorry for my actions tonight, im sorry for the stupid things i say. Sorry for being so honest that it hurts. Sorry that im that lonely friend that has never really felt that love that you clame to have. Im so sorry because i know you love me and i just wish that i wasnt here arround you to make you feel like you have failed me in some way because you havent. I love you so much that i wish i just excepted that im second if not third best. That dream, our dream will come true. When that day happens ill be complete ill be happy and what ever happens wont matter because you will be there. Why is it that it afects me to know that you were with someone else im to attached and i hope that in away this will be for the best ill have time to gatter my thoughts and to just run away from my self, my owne emotions that just screw me up. Ill be here when you come back ill be a call away when you cant do it anymore and if you need me to brake you out ill put my self out on the line. Remember who i am that devoted friend that you left behind that would rather be alone for the rest of her life then to lose you!
This is for all the times you said you werent important that you said you didnt matter what you dont know is that you matter to me.....
with every single last tear that is left
i love you
-jess