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I really hate the way the "update journal" window looks. it makes me not want to write anything. But i'm going to anyway, just to spite this stupid window. So yeah, anyway, i'm on here a lot because (a) it's finals, and (b) i only have two (2) classes. When you add a + b together, it means that i have a lot of time on my hands, and no one to spend it with. :-( Obviously it doesn't sound like much of a problem, but that was pretty much the way i spent my summer, and just about all the rest of last year, and it made me hella depressed. so it bothers me.
That said, I think we can consider this an official backslide for me. There's a bunch of crap back on my computer, and now jeanette's pressuring me to come out and make out with tons of guys, even though I'm pretty sure that every day I get farther and farther from actually being bi. I've only had two boy-crushes since i came to school, neither of which has lasted a week, and both of which happened on straight guys (who are now my friends). The bi thing is just kind of phasing out, it seems. so this makes things with jeanette rather awkward since she's absolutely desperate to meet some other lgbt people, and has thoroughly convinced herself that i'm one of them. oy vay. at least next semester she's joining the gay organization on campus, so hopefully that will sate her woman-lust enough to get her to back off on the idea of me as "gay boy" Christian. oy vay.
And to top things off, well . . . okay, i guess there really isn't anything to top things off with. Those two are pretty much it. But boy, do they make one bitch of a combo. Well, i'm sure i'll be back at some point. probably very soon.
That said, I think we can consider this an official backslide for me. There's a bunch of crap back on my computer, and now jeanette's pressuring me to come out and make out with tons of guys, even though I'm pretty sure that every day I get farther and farther from actually being bi. I've only had two boy-crushes since i came to school, neither of which has lasted a week, and both of which happened on straight guys (who are now my friends). The bi thing is just kind of phasing out, it seems. so this makes things with jeanette rather awkward since she's absolutely desperate to meet some other lgbt people, and has thoroughly convinced herself that i'm one of them. oy vay. at least next semester she's joining the gay organization on campus, so hopefully that will sate her woman-lust enough to get her to back off on the idea of me as "gay boy" Christian. oy vay.
And to top things off, well . . . okay, i guess there really isn't anything to top things off with. Those two are pretty much it. But boy, do they make one bitch of a combo. Well, i'm sure i'll be back at some point. probably very soon.