Maybe ill be original....
So the past few days have been a blast yet a real downer, i liked this girl a lot but then she tells my friend that she doesn't like me because i dont have self confidence. SO i'd like to ask her one question, how do i obtain this self confidence you speak of when every girl ive ever liked or at least told i liked has either abandoned me as a friend or been freaked out and kind of drifted away. Thats why i dont tell girls i like them anymore because theni lose them as friends. There is this girl i absoulutely adore and i wont tell her because im afraid to. Im fucking 16 years old and afraid of rejection more than anything. Why is that, why do i lack self confidence, why am i afraid of rejection. Why is anyone reading this at all and caring what i have to say because right now i dont even know what im doing. I have tons of fucking feelings for this girl yet all of them are suppressed into just complimenting her and not letting the way i feel get the best of me. I hung out with rich by ourselves for a while last night and i feel bad for him , i know realize why hes such an asshole and doesn't care about anything, i personally think he needs somthing to care about somthing that isn't material or somthing that could just fade away in a couple years, he needs somthing and im not sure what that is. Tonight we had a show, yestarday we had a show both of them were very awesome i had fun singing and playing the crowd afterwords but it just didn't feel right. There was another girl there last night thats pretty cool but i dont like her like that, i didn at a time but she got really annoying really fast so im over it. I gave mandi a ride home from mojoes tonight and she seemeed really upset but i didn't want to ask any questions because i hate drama and im being the impartial bystander in this one. Im so tired of everyones shit and me talkingto everyone about all of their shit and how im their freidns and im supposed to listen well its in my mind that i know theyll listen back but i just dont trust anyone. Why dont i trust anyone, why didn't i want to go to kevins tonight, FUCK WHY?