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[alkalineboot]

It's been a while... festering wounds are great to poke... Danielle and I have set a date... kind of... we may put it off for longer so that we can be financially stable... she is graduating this year... I may apply to be a CA... I am an emokid... I like it when people laugh at me... I can't stand to see a friend in a bad mood... I regret few things I have done in my life... I am a Christian... I think that I am losing my mind... I am shameless... well when I don't think that I'll regret it... I usually have a guilty conscience... I feel that I could disappear in a second and be happy... I am painfully shy, though most people wouldn't think that... until you see me try to speak in front of a group of people... I botch there... I have problems being cared about... I would rather any friend be happy than I be happy... I make jokes about myself before others can so I make people think that I am okay with it... When I disappear from the face of the Earth (figuratively) I don't want to be found... sometimes I wonder why I am at school... gaming is fun... I find myself just staring off into space sometimes that I don't want to come out of... I can't wait until I go home to God... I need to become more comfortable with witnessing to people...
okay well
I'm out
Jonny