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I will be alone and never have that someone for the rest of my life. I've been thinking about this for awhile now, the line from "Love Stinks" aslo came to mind while I was in thought, the line I speak of is something along the lines of "you love her, but she loves him." Let's say I am in love with a girl, no matter what I do I will be in love with this girl, but lets say she is dating another guy, this leaves me no chance and takes me out of the picture. I often think that I could met a girl that would be perfect to date, but since I am in love with this other girl I can't date her or anyone else. "Why can't I date anyone else?" I asked myself, and I had the following answer. First of all my love for the other girl is blinding me, and I hold all other girls up to that expectation of love. There is no way I can like someone if I am in love with someone else, it just doesn't work that way. If I did some how have feelings for someone else, they wouldn't measure up to the feeling of love, so I wouldn't be able to date them. Even if I decided to go out with a girl, and date her, then I am not being fair to her. My heart wouldn't be there, my heart would be with the other girl, the girl I love, and I would be leading this other girl on, and I wouldn't want to do that to anyone. So it appears that my only chance to date anyone would be to date this girl I am in love with, but could I even date her? The answer here is no. What if she did start to have feelings for me, would her feelings be true? She has had past relationships, and when you are in love with someone, even if things don't work out, there will always be a piece of that person in your heart. Seeing as how she has had past relationships and has been in love before, she will have a piece of that person in her heart, so if she did happen to have feelings toward me someday how strong would those feelings be? Could she love me? No. I have heard stories of people who have fallen in love and then split up with that person and married someone else, only to be thinking of the person they had once loved before. Their heart was not in the relationship they had with their husband/wife, their heart was with the person they had first fallen in love with. So love, it seems, is a one shot deal, and I missed my one shot at love.
I was looking at my old e-mails and I found an e-mail I sent to myself like 2 and one half years ago so I opened it to see what it was and this is what was in that e-mail. I had totally forgotten I wrote that, but I remember writing it. Interesting.
What was I thinking?
I was looking at my old e-mails and I found an e-mail I sent to myself like 2 and one half years ago so I opened it to see what it was and this is what was in that e-mail. I had totally forgotten I wrote that, but I remember writing it. Interesting.
What was I thinking?