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all that i wanted for chrismas was to get into Udel. its 2 days after christmas and i still have not heard anything. i keep calling but the office is closed. god i really wanna go. i dont think ive wanted something this bad in my life. i had a revolation the other day about my life and how i do things i dont want to. why would i do that? im going to quit applebees because i hate it and i miss friendlys. im going to go to college to study what I want to and not what i think will make me money. theres always a masters degree for that. i really wish i could go to an art school but they're too much money and thats just not an option. i really like delaware though. if i dont get in i dont want to go to suffolk. i want to travel a little. go visit some family in other states. Im 19 fucking years old and im sitting at home not doing anything. i need to get out there. i wish i had an answer from del so i could plan my next few months.
well i had a really good night last night. i got to see alot of people who i dont usually see and meredith tom and kenny were homef rom school. i recorded some of the night with my new camera and after watching it today i realize that i look like an idiot and i should not record myself anymore cause i look dumb. lol why are people friends with me? well im highly caffinated again today. god how did i get back to this point. i have work at friendlys tonight and its gonna be fun cause alot of college kids are home and working. i hope i make good money cause im gonna quit applebees and be broke.