good times
Though its a monday, for some reason, i'm in a really good mood. Probably because I have Alot to do. anyways... this weekend my mom and sisters are coming in and i'm really psyched. I miss them crazily of course and we're gonna have fun. Saraswat will meet my family, i guess. I really like this guy... I have no idea why... i mean he's a liberal, atheist-hindi from Boston. But our differences make a really good foundation for intellectual sharing. He's so freaking smart and a tough guy always challenging my toughness. I'll post pics here eventually. I spend like every free moment with him and he's like madly in love with me (according to him) and treats me very well. we can respect our differences and he respects my strength and ambition so i never feel supressed. The only tripping block is the religion thing. But honestly as terrible as this sounds, i'm at an all time spiritual low because I'm trying to figure out where I stand spiritually anyway.
I've been so immersed in studying other cultures and religious ideas that I might have forgotten my own somewhere along the way... My logic once again interferes as I'm trying to convince myself that the faith I've proclaimed for so long is legit. I can't possibly bring myself to admit that all i've taught learned and FELT for so long is false, but at the same time... My latest idea is that many parts of christianity are just a good story. I dont' know where I stand but I know that there has to be something out there and really judaism seems to me the best logical story. It's hard to know what to do or how to go about changing the current limbo situation. i guess that's why swat and i have no real problems in that respect because he's cool with wherever i stand... He's very moral, and so there's little interference. Anyway these things were on my mind so i thought i'd post... gotta run to class... al arabia!
I've been so immersed in studying other cultures and religious ideas that I might have forgotten my own somewhere along the way... My logic once again interferes as I'm trying to convince myself that the faith I've proclaimed for so long is legit. I can't possibly bring myself to admit that all i've taught learned and FELT for so long is false, but at the same time... My latest idea is that many parts of christianity are just a good story. I dont' know where I stand but I know that there has to be something out there and really judaism seems to me the best logical story. It's hard to know what to do or how to go about changing the current limbo situation. i guess that's why swat and i have no real problems in that respect because he's cool with wherever i stand... He's very moral, and so there's little interference. Anyway these things were on my mind so i thought i'd post... gotta run to class... al arabia!