oh please.. why me?

[alizzleshizzle]

i have never been so confused or sad before, and there are so many things going wrong. I'm scared.

i need to make more friends because i have very few..
i need to learn how to control myself, honestly i really do.
i need to become stronger
i need to lose all my insecurities in myself and my relationship
i need to learn how to just have fun, some how i have forgotten.

and i need all these things soon. some serious things in my life are at risk if i don't.

self control, please help me now.

if anyone knows how to just pick up all there old habits and just change, please tell me. i need help, but i know i shouldn't.. i need to do this on my own.. but..

i'm just so sad.