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Here I am again, trying to reach out in a small way to mark the daily depression and desperation regardless of not wanting to burden everyone and be a total drag. In fact, two friends outside of fandom recently wrote of their troubles (more real-life related than mental, and in that sense, far worse), and in doing so, apologized for being a drag, or for going on and on. I plan to write to them and say "no, I want to know when it's bad for you. It makes me feel like I can trust you with my bad things, and then if there is a way to help you, I can think about someone other than myself." Or something like that.
My therapist/psychiatrist person who is also a Rabbi and a very intelligent man, has been asking a lot of WHY questions. What precipitated my good mood to my bad mood and vice versa? Why can't I get up and stay up during the day? What forces me back to bed? Where does the anxiety stem from?
As this video so beautifully says, I DON'T KNOW. Watch it, it's by humansrsuperior so you know it's awesome. Of course it makes me feel like I shall never vid again, but as I discussed with my dear friend no_detective yesterday, I KNOW I CAN'T POSSIBLY BE AS HORRIBLE AS I THINK I AM, so I'm working on that as a problem. And yet.
Anyway... here is a 30 sec "promo" video I did for my cat rescue group. We have two competing adoption events and someone started calling it CATWAR and we all found this pretty hilarious. The one with the most adoptions wins. Oddly the two Petco locations are also trying to beat each other, so it really is a war. Of sorts.
Here I am again, trying to reach out in a small way to mark the daily depression and desperation regardless of not wanting to burden everyone and be a total drag. In fact, two friends outside of fandom recently wrote of their troubles (more real-life related than mental, and in that sense, far worse), and in doing so, apologized for being a drag, or for going on and on. I plan to write to them and say "no, I want to know when it's bad for you. It makes me feel like I can trust you with my bad things, and then if there is a way to help you, I can think about someone other than myself." Or something like that.
My therapist/psychiatrist person who is also a Rabbi and a very intelligent man, has been asking a lot of WHY questions. What precipitated my good mood to my bad mood and vice versa? Why can't I get up and stay up during the day? What forces me back to bed? Where does the anxiety stem from?
As this video so beautifully says, I DON'T KNOW. Watch it, it's by humansrsuperior so you know it's awesome. Of course it makes me feel like I shall never vid again, but as I discussed with my dear friend no_detective yesterday, I KNOW I CAN'T POSSIBLY BE AS HORRIBLE AS I THINK I AM, so I'm working on that as a problem. And yet.
Anyway... here is a 30 sec "promo" video I did for my cat rescue group. We have two competing adoption events and someone started calling it CATWAR and we all found this pretty hilarious. The one with the most adoptions wins. Oddly the two Petco locations are also trying to beat each other, so it really is a war. Of sorts.