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First- I am so freaking excited about this weekend. Not like unrealistic expectations excited just like... yay for whatever happens excited. People I love love love are going to be here with me having fun. Wow, I am so freaking lucky.
And now the weird stuff:
I confuse myself greatly. I think I am going to apply for Peace Corps and accept a position if I get one... and yet, I am sad to leave this life, my friends, things I hope would happen, etc behind. What would be waiting for me when I got back? At the same moment I am so freaking excited about doing something so uncomfortable and scary.
I think I might be headed in a new direction...
You know how you have those things and people that you think that you want... if life really progressed the way you asked would you still want them? Maybe not but it can be so hearbreaking to wait and see... and sometimes it makes you feel so pathetic.
I really, really like you but what does that mean?
And now the weird stuff:
I confuse myself greatly. I think I am going to apply for Peace Corps and accept a position if I get one... and yet, I am sad to leave this life, my friends, things I hope would happen, etc behind. What would be waiting for me when I got back? At the same moment I am so freaking excited about doing something so uncomfortable and scary.
I think I might be headed in a new direction...
You know how you have those things and people that you think that you want... if life really progressed the way you asked would you still want them? Maybe not but it can be so hearbreaking to wait and see... and sometimes it makes you feel so pathetic.
I really, really like you but what does that mean?