alone is alone not alive
i forgot to mention earlier that yesterday, i was having a weird emotional day, so i went to try to have dinner with mom & jimmy, trying to like, connect, or something, and it was miserable because mom was in rare form. and then tonight, i went over there to do laundry, and jimmy made chicken and drew & vicki were there, and there was still nothing.
like, i'm having this whole period, now, again, of feeling disconnected and wanting people around me, and for some reason i keep reaching out to mom, trying to get at least a shadow of something from her, and coming up emptyhanded. so why do i keep doing it?
in other news, i just found out that easter weekend just happens to be the same weekend linds is coming to noho again. this sucks more than a little, because it now means i need to decide between family and, well, myself. it also marks the second year in a row that, for one reason or another, ridiculously dear friends of mind are in the neighborhood (and yes, within 150 miles counts as "in the neighborhood" ) on easter. which is weird, random, and kinda cool.
anyway. just wanted to share something actually, you know, personal, or whatever.
mwahs!
~a
like, i'm having this whole period, now, again, of feeling disconnected and wanting people around me, and for some reason i keep reaching out to mom, trying to get at least a shadow of something from her, and coming up emptyhanded. so why do i keep doing it?
in other news, i just found out that easter weekend just happens to be the same weekend linds is coming to noho again. this sucks more than a little, because it now means i need to decide between family and, well, myself. it also marks the second year in a row that, for one reason or another, ridiculously dear friends of mind are in the neighborhood (and yes, within 150 miles counts as "in the neighborhood" ) on easter. which is weird, random, and kinda cool.
anyway. just wanted to share something actually, you know, personal, or whatever.
mwahs!
~a