i could take or leave you, but i *want* to take you.
some song lyrics that are particularly poignant right now.
i search your profile for a translation
i study the conversation like a map
'cause i know there is strength
in the differences between us
and i know there is comfort
where we overlap............
* * * * *
we negotiate with chaos
for some sense of satisfaction
if you won't give it to me
at least give me a better view
and
everybody is just a stranger
but that’s the danger in going my own way
I guess it’s a price I have to pay
still everything happens for a reason
is no reason not to ask yourself if you are
living it right
and
The book of love is long and boring No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
but I I love it when you read to me and you you can read me anything
The book of love has music in it In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental Some of it is just really dumb but I
I love it when you sing to me and you you can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring and written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes and things we're all
too young to know but I I love it when you give me things and you
you ought to give me wedding rings I I love it when you give me things
and you you ought to give me wedding rings
and
plus i'm not listening to you anymore
my head is too sore and my heart's perforated
and i'm mired in the marrow of my well ain't that funny bone
learning how to be alone and devastated
and
we are made to bleed
and scab and heal and bleed again
and turn every scar into a joke
we are made to fight
and fuck and talk and fight again
and sit around and laugh until we choke
sit around and laugh until we choke
and finally.
And I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go
it's been an emotional week. i need a vacation like, now. that's why it's a good thing that i'm taking wednesday and friday off this week. granted, they won't necessarily be *restful* days, since there's many a plan for them (yay, city trip!!!!!!!!!), but they'll be amazingly good. i hope. :)
today was nifty. i spoke to my linds, for a long time, most of which i wasted bitching about my current relationship situation (heh). but she's getting settled in her house, which sounds *amazing*, which is awesome, and she's looking for a job and trying to figure out school, and everything seems to be going well, which i'm glad for. i hope i get to see her soon. i miss her muches.
and then i sat around and played on the computer some. i watched some tv, and showered, and was gonna go to walmart but the weather wasn't great (it wasn't raining but it looked like it was threatening, and walmart's a *long* drive in bad weather). so i ordered a pizza from pizza hut and stopped by mom's to print out a coupon and picked up the pizza and just drove around a little. tomorrow i'm thinking about going out, even though i have a LOT of cleaning to do. if i go out i'll probably head connecticut-way and go to a movie, if i can decide on something to see. i just......i made myself a mix cd that i think would be good car music, and i want to drive. maybe not connecticut. maybe up the thruway, or ooh, the palisades. we'll see.
yeah, i've got nothing else, yo. i guess i'll see y'all later or somethin'.
mwah.
~a
ETA: i hate trying to revisit stories that i started months ago. because here i am, in a different mindset, trying to recapture what i had then. le grand sigh. at least if i can get it done, it'll be done and i'll be able to move on. that'd be nice.
i search your profile for a translation
i study the conversation like a map
'cause i know there is strength
in the differences between us
and i know there is comfort
where we overlap............
* * * * *
we negotiate with chaos
for some sense of satisfaction
if you won't give it to me
at least give me a better view
and
everybody is just a stranger
but that’s the danger in going my own way
I guess it’s a price I have to pay
still everything happens for a reason
is no reason not to ask yourself if you are
living it right
and
The book of love is long and boring No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
but I I love it when you read to me and you you can read me anything
The book of love has music in it In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental Some of it is just really dumb but I
I love it when you sing to me and you you can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring and written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes and things we're all
too young to know but I I love it when you give me things and you
you ought to give me wedding rings I I love it when you give me things
and you you ought to give me wedding rings
and
plus i'm not listening to you anymore
my head is too sore and my heart's perforated
and i'm mired in the marrow of my well ain't that funny bone
learning how to be alone and devastated
and
we are made to bleed
and scab and heal and bleed again
and turn every scar into a joke
we are made to fight
and fuck and talk and fight again
and sit around and laugh until we choke
sit around and laugh until we choke
and finally.
And I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go
it's been an emotional week. i need a vacation like, now. that's why it's a good thing that i'm taking wednesday and friday off this week. granted, they won't necessarily be *restful* days, since there's many a plan for them (yay, city trip!!!!!!!!!), but they'll be amazingly good. i hope. :)
today was nifty. i spoke to my linds, for a long time, most of which i wasted bitching about my current relationship situation (heh). but she's getting settled in her house, which sounds *amazing*, which is awesome, and she's looking for a job and trying to figure out school, and everything seems to be going well, which i'm glad for. i hope i get to see her soon. i miss her muches.
and then i sat around and played on the computer some. i watched some tv, and showered, and was gonna go to walmart but the weather wasn't great (it wasn't raining but it looked like it was threatening, and walmart's a *long* drive in bad weather). so i ordered a pizza from pizza hut and stopped by mom's to print out a coupon and picked up the pizza and just drove around a little. tomorrow i'm thinking about going out, even though i have a LOT of cleaning to do. if i go out i'll probably head connecticut-way and go to a movie, if i can decide on something to see. i just......i made myself a mix cd that i think would be good car music, and i want to drive. maybe not connecticut. maybe up the thruway, or ooh, the palisades. we'll see.
yeah, i've got nothing else, yo. i guess i'll see y'all later or somethin'.
mwah.
~a
ETA: i hate trying to revisit stories that i started months ago. because here i am, in a different mindset, trying to recapture what i had then. le grand sigh. at least if i can get it done, it'll be done and i'll be able to move on. that'd be nice.