wonderfalls love. and other stuff thrown in for good measure.
Eric: But if you want to be close to somebody, really close, you have to open yourself up.
Jaye: Like a wound?
and
Jaye: But the issues and damage? You weren't wrong about any of that. In fact, you don't even know the half of it. I mean, forget about your damage. I'm quite possibly certifiable. Why would you want to get involved with anything so potentially messy and complicated as, well, me?
Eric: Because you make me happy.
sounds like a conversation i had earlier today.
quick flash thoughts over the course of the day (in no particular order).
i've been tired and nauseous all day. 'course, somehow everything on earth that could ever possibly happen has happened today, so that might have something to do with it.
maybe some more anonymous secrets would make me feel better. no. really. i mean it.
finally, more quoting fun (from trickster_'s latest chapter in the treading saga) again, because somehow in the midst of a gorgeous chapter of light-hearted, gayboy funness (with all the drama that ensues), she manages to throw in these beautiful commentaries on relationships and how fucked up they can be.......and how normal they are at the same time.
Because every relationship was, in a sense, based on emotional dependency. If you chose to have someone in your life, it was because they did something for you, even if it was just because you had fun with them or could bitch at them and they'd let you. Especially when you were together for a long time. You got used to each other. You learned how to give the other person what they needed to keep you around. It was symbiosis, of sorts. If you didn't depend on them to make you happy, then you at least counted on them not to make you sad.
mwah.
~a
ETA: i forgot to add the song lyrics i'd wanted to.
If I gave you the sky
if I laid down my life
would you believe me then?
If I promised to change
if I carried the blame
would you believe me then?
could you see it like me
and believe what I see
could you listen, and remember that I love you
Only,
because I told you, because I told you so.
If you told me you lied
but I stayed true and tried
would you believe me then?
And if your beauty was gone
but my love lingered on
would you believe me then?
Could you see it like me
and believe what I see
could you listen and remember that I love you
Only,
because I told you, because I told you so.
You take the wheel for now
I'm too tired to drive this one home anyhow,
for now
And when you mention my name
let this one thing remain,
my love,
believe me now.
Jaye: Like a wound?
and
Jaye: But the issues and damage? You weren't wrong about any of that. In fact, you don't even know the half of it. I mean, forget about your damage. I'm quite possibly certifiable. Why would you want to get involved with anything so potentially messy and complicated as, well, me?
Eric: Because you make me happy.
sounds like a conversation i had earlier today.
quick flash thoughts over the course of the day (in no particular order).
- how can i work from home and STILL end up wanting to kill everyone i work with?
- i wonder if the reason i think i can handle being in an open relationship with someone is because i don't think i'm ever going to be *enough* for someone on my own.
- mmmmmmm. dawson's love.
- i think i have to *stop* coming up with ideas of stuff to do next week. because i've already got enough for like, ten days worth of visit.
- i need to clean. like, badly. this weekend, i guess.
- finally: a reason to look forward to monday.
- i think a certain someone needs to hop her happy little ass on a plane and finally come see my apartment.
- some people are just too scared for their own good. myself included.
i've been tired and nauseous all day. 'course, somehow everything on earth that could ever possibly happen has happened today, so that might have something to do with it.
maybe some more anonymous secrets would make me feel better. no. really. i mean it.
finally, more quoting fun (from trickster_'s latest chapter in the treading saga) again, because somehow in the midst of a gorgeous chapter of light-hearted, gayboy funness (with all the drama that ensues), she manages to throw in these beautiful commentaries on relationships and how fucked up they can be.......and how normal they are at the same time.
Because every relationship was, in a sense, based on emotional dependency. If you chose to have someone in your life, it was because they did something for you, even if it was just because you had fun with them or could bitch at them and they'd let you. Especially when you were together for a long time. You got used to each other. You learned how to give the other person what they needed to keep you around. It was symbiosis, of sorts. If you didn't depend on them to make you happy, then you at least counted on them not to make you sad.
mwah.
~a
ETA: i forgot to add the song lyrics i'd wanted to.
If I gave you the sky
if I laid down my life
would you believe me then?
If I promised to change
if I carried the blame
would you believe me then?
could you see it like me
and believe what I see
could you listen, and remember that I love you
Only,
because I told you, because I told you so.
If you told me you lied
but I stayed true and tried
would you believe me then?
And if your beauty was gone
but my love lingered on
would you believe me then?
Could you see it like me
and believe what I see
could you listen and remember that I love you
Only,
because I told you, because I told you so.
You take the wheel for now
I'm too tired to drive this one home anyhow,
for now
And when you mention my name
let this one thing remain,
my love,
believe me now.