Fuck
Umm.....yeah, this past 2 days has sucked.
1. I'm not moving out, ever. Not while I'm still in Texas, however long that may be. No more apartment with Sarah.
2. Me and dad talked last night for an hour. Actually, he talked, I sat there with my head down and cried the whole time.
3. I've hurt my parents a lot.
4. My life is in complete disarray, and its been secretly piling up and piling up, and now that I realize it, I all of a sudden notice that I have a lot of problems and a lot of things to resolve.
5. I've been living in the moment too much, and because of that, I've forgotten my goals.
6. Andy stopped calling me. I know why too.
7. I'm not going out on work nights anymore.
8. I'm on the verge of developing an eating disorder.
9. I've been running myself into the ground, I'm going to get sick from lack of sleep and not eating right.
10. I'm not keeping track of my money well.
11. My car is 1,000 mi over its scheduled oil change.
12. My mom wont talk to me.
13. I wanna go back to school, but not here, in CA, but I have no money.
14. I might get laid off in January.
15. I wanna be a writer, but I dont know how to do it.
16. My parents believe that I'm losing my faith, I think so too, I cant even go to church anymore, I cant do it.
17. The only good thing out of all of this, is that my dad has gotten reports from people at work about how impressed they are with me and how I do my job right and get it done. Yay.
I dont know how life got weird, I dont know how all that shit creeped up on me so fast.
I'm still at work, I have 160 memory dimms/processors I need to write up reports on. Fuuuuuck. If I dont finish it all its ok, but still, fuuuuuuuck.
I wanna go home, I'm tired.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo-Ali.
1. I'm not moving out, ever. Not while I'm still in Texas, however long that may be. No more apartment with Sarah.
2. Me and dad talked last night for an hour. Actually, he talked, I sat there with my head down and cried the whole time.
3. I've hurt my parents a lot.
4. My life is in complete disarray, and its been secretly piling up and piling up, and now that I realize it, I all of a sudden notice that I have a lot of problems and a lot of things to resolve.
5. I've been living in the moment too much, and because of that, I've forgotten my goals.
6. Andy stopped calling me. I know why too.
7. I'm not going out on work nights anymore.
8. I'm on the verge of developing an eating disorder.
9. I've been running myself into the ground, I'm going to get sick from lack of sleep and not eating right.
10. I'm not keeping track of my money well.
11. My car is 1,000 mi over its scheduled oil change.
12. My mom wont talk to me.
13. I wanna go back to school, but not here, in CA, but I have no money.
14. I might get laid off in January.
15. I wanna be a writer, but I dont know how to do it.
16. My parents believe that I'm losing my faith, I think so too, I cant even go to church anymore, I cant do it.
17. The only good thing out of all of this, is that my dad has gotten reports from people at work about how impressed they are with me and how I do my job right and get it done. Yay.
I dont know how life got weird, I dont know how all that shit creeped up on me so fast.
I'm still at work, I have 160 memory dimms/processors I need to write up reports on. Fuuuuuck. If I dont finish it all its ok, but still, fuuuuuuuck.
I wanna go home, I'm tired.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo-Ali.