Whew....
Ok so I came home at 8:30 tonight. And neither one of my parents has brought up anything. I hurt them though...I know I did. In my last entry, I forgot to mention that when I left town on Friday afternoon, I had written a 4 page rant letter to my parents, telling them what honestly happened Thursday night and how sorry I was, and then how I've been adapting here but not so much in Tomball, I hate Tomball, and how because of this and because I can afford it I want to move out with Sarah in the near most recent future. We want to move in above Andy and Randy's place on Westheimer. Anyways, on Friday afternoon when my mom got home from work she found the letter and called me immediately after she read it, and we talked for 30 min about these things and she let me leave for the weekend, and she forgave me for getting drunk.....but she said shes so afraid of seeing me slip away again. I know what she means. I dont want to see myself slip away again either....
Which is why I thank god for Sarah. She keeps me in line, even though she probably doesnt do much or even realize it, she really does. I'm so grateful to have her friendship.
But the past few days, I have come to 4 conclusions....
1. I'm never getting drunk again. I like to take sips of those midori sours Sarah likes so much, those are good, but I'm not going to drink in excess anymore. The other night was the first time in like a year I had done so. And I felt like a douche. So I'm never getting drunk again.
2. I'm trying to honor my parents more. I'm going to try to be on my best behavior and earn their trust back. I was doing so good, until this past month, when I started to fuck up again.
3. I want to be moved out by Christmas. I'm saving all the money I can so I can move out and pay the things I need to pay to do so. If I have to work overtime, I will. Me and Sarah are serious about this. Tonight we were in Urban Outfitters looking at room decor and planning what are place was going to look like and then all of a sudden we decided that we want to throw a Christmas party......lol.
4. I need to stop going out on work nights and take my job more seriously. I'm letting shit get to my head. Plus I'm constanly tired from lack of sleep, mom said I'm going to make myself sick.
And yeah.....I'm tired now. What a weekend it has been.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo-Ali.
Which is why I thank god for Sarah. She keeps me in line, even though she probably doesnt do much or even realize it, she really does. I'm so grateful to have her friendship.
But the past few days, I have come to 4 conclusions....
1. I'm never getting drunk again. I like to take sips of those midori sours Sarah likes so much, those are good, but I'm not going to drink in excess anymore. The other night was the first time in like a year I had done so. And I felt like a douche. So I'm never getting drunk again.
2. I'm trying to honor my parents more. I'm going to try to be on my best behavior and earn their trust back. I was doing so good, until this past month, when I started to fuck up again.
3. I want to be moved out by Christmas. I'm saving all the money I can so I can move out and pay the things I need to pay to do so. If I have to work overtime, I will. Me and Sarah are serious about this. Tonight we were in Urban Outfitters looking at room decor and planning what are place was going to look like and then all of a sudden we decided that we want to throw a Christmas party......lol.
4. I need to stop going out on work nights and take my job more seriously. I'm letting shit get to my head. Plus I'm constanly tired from lack of sleep, mom said I'm going to make myself sick.
And yeah.....I'm tired now. What a weekend it has been.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo-Ali.