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I think that guy that said the stages of dealing was full of shit. Thats not how i deal at least. Im thinkin its more like denial, (i agree with that one), then saddness, then anger, then saddness again. Then anger. And i dont really know what comes next cus i havent really gotten past the anger and the saddness. I havent really ever had to deal with anything that hurt this bad before. I know i will get over it i just dont see it now. It hurts so fucking bad. ONe second i wanna kick his ass for saying that shit and hurting me so bad, then i just wanna cry and never stop because i am so sad. And no one around understands why i hurt so bad. I know they have had loss too, and im not saying they dont know what it feels like to be hurt by someone they just dont understand why he meant so much to me, why i keep letting him hurt me, why i care so much that hes out of my life now. It hurts so fucking bad and i know they do care, it just feels like noone in my life cares how fucking bad it hurts. I just wanna move on, get past this, i just dont know how right now.