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yeah. so for the past like half hour i have been sitting at my computer and reading various people's livejopurnals, blogs, xangas, ect and getting incredibly frustrated. People are such whiny bitches, holy crap. Its just like, at least what i read, your lives arent that bad. I guess its just because the last couple of weeks everything has been put into a better perspective. 2 weeks ago i went to a funeral for a 19 year old, peter meslow, who died of cancer. Ever since then ive just been copmlaining less and just accepting shitty things as a part of lie kinda thing.. And now, friday i found out that my cousin maria, my closest cousin, has cancer. She is so scared and so am i. I think im in kinda a denial stage because i havent really cried yet. Ive been walking around in a super hyper, over happy, zombieish state. But havent really cried yet. I dont know whats up, i really wish i would just cry and get it over with. Start dealing with this. But my main point was, is that most people dont appreciate the fact that they are at least healthy and alive. I pray to god that they got all the cancer out in her surgery and that she lives to be old and grey. It sounds super cheezy or whatever but lately its just that anything shitty that happens, i think about more like it sux but its not that big of a deal because at least im not dealing with all the shit that peter had to deal with and now what maria is going to have to deal with. So suck it up people. Cancer sucks, and i pray that she gets better.