soon forgotten and easily held
So i sit here and watch everyone around me have these days of our lives, and realize something (well a couple things). One IM in love and being blinded by it once again. Two i only have one friend a person who lied right to my face when they said they wanted to be a friend and well then there is greg.
Being in love is something all in a catagory all in itself, and i think i need to take some time and start hanging out with dane and greg a lil more and maybe call dave george and well neil (hell ill even chill with Giavonna). The only reason im saying that is well we are all only gonna be around here for so long, and i thought i was honestly gonna be talking to everyone for a really long time... well thats not the case now. I mean i really wanted ash and laur and michelle and dane and greg and katie and josh to be around for a lil bit, but well "im not fun" anymore so some people say. I duno maybe its because well im almost 20 and im trying to get my shit together and getting smashed everynight just doesnt work (specially when im buying all the fucking booze) I mean with the exception of dane buyin his own shit i need my money. It just seems like well only ash is handcaping me as a "friend" because i dont really have time to go all the way to washington twshp just to get drunk and not wanna stay the night.....
I dont honestly know why but katie's aunt's house gives me the heebie jeebies. O well because well as ash would say "i move from group to group" so i guess thats the nice way of just tellin me i dont fit in with her crowd any more. Its not a big deal i just thought well when she said i was her friend she meant it but ya know when she means friend its more or less just passing me on and not stickin around and i jsut dont hold "friends" to that standard.
Aside those thoughts i will be posting another entry about the party i will be having here maybe once a week or every other weekend whenever the pool is back up and well i get the backyard all DID up....... so in the mean time FUCK YOU hahahahaha
Being in love is something all in a catagory all in itself, and i think i need to take some time and start hanging out with dane and greg a lil more and maybe call dave george and well neil (hell ill even chill with Giavonna). The only reason im saying that is well we are all only gonna be around here for so long, and i thought i was honestly gonna be talking to everyone for a really long time... well thats not the case now. I mean i really wanted ash and laur and michelle and dane and greg and katie and josh to be around for a lil bit, but well "im not fun" anymore so some people say. I duno maybe its because well im almost 20 and im trying to get my shit together and getting smashed everynight just doesnt work (specially when im buying all the fucking booze) I mean with the exception of dane buyin his own shit i need my money. It just seems like well only ash is handcaping me as a "friend" because i dont really have time to go all the way to washington twshp just to get drunk and not wanna stay the night.....
I dont honestly know why but katie's aunt's house gives me the heebie jeebies. O well because well as ash would say "i move from group to group" so i guess thats the nice way of just tellin me i dont fit in with her crowd any more. Its not a big deal i just thought well when she said i was her friend she meant it but ya know when she means friend its more or less just passing me on and not stickin around and i jsut dont hold "friends" to that standard.
Aside those thoughts i will be posting another entry about the party i will be having here maybe once a week or every other weekend whenever the pool is back up and well i get the backyard all DID up....... so in the mean time FUCK YOU hahahahaha