SJ: feels like love
feels like love
super junior: kibum, kihae
pg, 2741 words
sj!movieAU. in which Donghae is Distracting and Kibum kind-of maybe has a crush on someone.
a/n: for meiface's birthday, who wanted texting during class in sj!movieverse. and since Kyuhyun was not in that and did not already have a set role, I conveniently made use of him. also, I have no idea how this got so long. ):
Halfway through biology, Kibum's derriere starts vibrating.
Thankful that he'd remembered to turn his ringtone off that morning, he's halfway through digging into his back jeans pocket when the teacher's voice interrupts his thoughts.
"Kibum-sshi, is everything alright?"
Apparently, he'd been less subtle than he'd hoped in his hunt for his phone. Mumbling a positive and giving a reassuring smile, Kibum carefully makes sure his textbook is blocking the teacher's view before turning to his cell.
ONE NEW TEXT MESSAGE.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:25AM):
HI KIBUMMIE.
In hindsight, it actually makes a lot of sense that any messages would be from Donghae. Kibum isn't exactly known for being Mr. Popular (if he's perfectly honest, he barely talks to anyone outside of Donghae and Kyuhyun), and his family members know better than to call or text during class. Ignoring the warmth blooming in the pit of his stomach, Kibum purposefully makes a show of putting the phone down on his desk and turning back to his notes, knowing that Donghae would be watching.
bzzz.
His phone vibrates loudly against the wooden desk half a second later, and the whole class (including the teacher) turns to look at him.
Biting back a curse, Kibum gives a feeble apology and gives up altogether on taking notes.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:26AM):
KIBUMMIE? WHAT ARE YOU DOING. WAKE UP!!!
TEXT FROM kim kibum (10:27AM):
how much sugar did you have for breakfast hyung
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:27AM):
did you know that goldfish pee ethanol if you don't give them oxygen!!!!
TEXT FROM kim kibum (10:29AM):
...donghae, I'm trying to listen to the teacher.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:29AM):
but it's true, they do! ):
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:30AM):
why won't you believe me ;~;
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:31AM):
HEY, let's go to my house. :D :D :D
TEXT FROM kim kibum (10:33AM):
I thought we were going anyway.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:34AM):
no, right now
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:34AM):
I'LL SEE YOU OUTSIDE OKAY
no, donghae wait, Kibum tries to type, but by the time he presses send and looks up, Donghae's seat is already empty. Which is fine with Kibum, really - he's perfectly happy letting Donghae go do whatever while he sits in biology class.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:40AM):
KIBUMMIE, LOOK DOWN!
... except no, not really. He tells himself that it's because Donghae is waving at him like a maniac from the front lawn, and if Kibum doesn't stop him soon, someone is going to look out the window and see Donghae and then Donghae is going to get in trouble. It certainly has nothing to do with how Kibum seems to have problems saying 'no' whenever Donghae is involved. Giving a mental sigh, he raises his hand, waiting for the teacher to look expectantly at him before explaining that his sister had just texted him about a minor family emergency and if he could please be excused. He ends with an earnest smile, followed by the usual "I'll make up the work as soon as possible".
The teacher looks hesitant for a second - it was against school policy to let students out without written notes, after all - but even if his reputation as top-student-in-every-possible-subject has lessened somewhat since becoming friends with Donghae, he still is Kim Kibum, and surely a model student like him wouldn't lie about something like this. Kibum hides a satisfied smile, knowing how the teacher would respond even before she nods and wishes him good luck with his family.
The number of family emergencies he's been having has increased drastically since he'd met Donghae, he thinks to himself as he makes his way down the stairs.
"Kibummie, you came!" Donghae beams at the sight of Kibum appearing at the front doors of the school building, his wide smile brighter than the sun. Kibum tries to convince himself that the tripping of his heart is to be blamed on running down the three flights of stairs from the biology classroom and has nothing to do with the way Donghae throws his arms around Kibum's shoulders.
~
Kibum glares. He glares so hard the back of Kyuhyun's head should theoretically have burst into flames from the eye contact alone.
"Wow, you have it so bad."
"Shut up," Kibum says without thinking, glaring harder, before realizing what Kyuhyun had just said. Suppressing a groan, he buries his face into Kyuhyun's couch, his I don't know what you're talking about sounding weak even to his own ears.
"For someone who's supposedly so smart, you're a bit of an idiot," Kyuhyun says bluntly, eyes not leaving the computer where he's winning yet another game of whatever he's playing - Kibum can't be bothered to find out. "Just hurry up and admit it, you're not fooling anyone but yourself. And maybe Donghae - but Donghae's Donghae, he's naive and clueless like that."
Kibum barely suppresses the involuntary urge to defend Donghae, the automatic no, be quiet, he's just innocent threatening to burst out of his mouth as it is. "Thank you, Mr. Helpful," he says instead through gritted teeth.
Besides, so what if he has a crush on Donghae? People get crushes on their classmates all the time, don't they? It's all part of growing up, his mother had said, and it's hardly Kibum's fault that Donghae has a perfectly adorable smile and perpetually windswept hair and -
Oh god, he's going to smother himself in the seat of Kyuhyun's couch if he ever thinks anything so sappy again.
As if sensing his internal monologue, Kyuhyun turns and just looks at him, rolling his eyes as the waves of why are you so stupid, god, why am I even friends with you practically ooze off him. Grinding his molars together, Kibum aims one of the cushions at Kyuhyun's head in retaliation.
It misses by a foot, and the younger boy smirks.
"Fuck, I need new friends." Kibum mumbles into the armrest.
"Oh my heart, it bleeds," Kyuhyun shoots back, not missing a beat. "You're being stupid, and you know it. Hurry up and tell him already."
"Shut up, I hate you," Kibum says in a display of perfect logic and coherence, and resists the urge to smother himself with a pillow.
~
Kibum gets into an argument with Donghae.
Kibum gets into a completely pointless argument with Donghae, spurred by his overall frustration at the feelings he may or may not have towards his best friend (and lack of sexual gratification, don't forget that bit, Kyuhyun adds helpfully) and now Donghae is mad and not talking to him.
You might be under the impression that with a personality like Donghae's, he would be incapable of being angry at someone for more than a few hours, but you would also be completely wrong. Even if Donghae has the sweetest disposition known to mankind for 99.999% of his life, no one does mad like Donghae does - because Donghae does mad the same way he does happy and cheerful and every other emotion. That is to say, wholeheartedly and singlemindedly.
Being ignored by Donghae means no text messages during class or 3AM chat conversations or being dragged off to Donghae's house after school. And as much as Kibum mentally grumbles about being distracted by the other boy 24/7, he comes to the somewhat horrifying realization that he'd somehow gone and gotten used to being distracted twenty-four hours a day in the last few years. He also discovers that he can apparently no longer get through classes without checking the text message inbox on his cell phone 2342423432 times.
"You're such an idiot," Kyuhyun tells him, tone snarky but eyes sympathetic, and Kibum looks away.
I miss you, he types into his cell that night, but flips his phone shut before his fingers can press send.
He apologizes first a week later, mostly because the whole stupid argument was his fault to begin with, but also because he can't stand having Donghae angry at him. Kibum knows that his apology is far from stellar, with him stumbling over every other word and terribly uncertain as to how to say I was just frustrated because I think I kind of like you but don't know how to tell you because you're my best friend without actually saying it. He makes do with vague explanations and hand gestures that he knows he himself would never be satisfied with, but Donghae just smiles, proclaiming it's okay Kibummie! I missed you, let's never fight again! immediately before launching himself at Kibum.
Kibum ignores the observation that Donghae fits perfectly into his arms.
~
Kyuhyun gets a Twitter.
Kyuhyun gets a Twitter and Kibum is going to kill him because not only does he get Donghae into it (which of course, means that Kibum has an account not long after), his first update is kibum is in love!~ and now Donghae is spamming Kibum's account with a million tweets all along the lines of OMG WHAT and why didn't I know about this kibummie ): and tell me tell me tell me!
Kibum manages to ignore it all well enough -
TEXT FROM lee donghae (1:45AM):
why don't you trust me anymore ;______;
- until Donghae texts him, and then it's something along the lines of emotional blackmail because there's no way he can let Donghae go on thinking Kibum doesn't trust him. And there lies the problem, because Kibum's not going to lie to his best friend, but there's no way Kibum can just tell him the truth either.
His only saving grace is that it's the weekend, and so Kibum has two days to figure out what he's going to say, provided Donghae doesn't show up at his doorstep.
Kyuhyun emails him Saturday afternoon (because Kibum has turned off his cellphone and instant messaging program and essentially all forms of instant eletronic contact).
from Cho Kyuhyun
to Kim Kibum
date Feb 20 at 7:22 PM
he likes you too, you know, just in case you were so dense you completely missed that
Kibum had completely missed that, but he's convinced Kyuhyun is lying his ass off. Kibum is an academic genius, thank you very much - some of it has to transfer to his social life, right? Clearly, his so-called "denseness" has less to do with him actually being dense and more to do with Donghae being uninterested.
Frankly, his life kind of sucks.
~
By the time Monday rolls around, Kibum still has no idea what to do.
He knows he does have to talk to Donghae though, because Donghae's actually made no move to contact Kibum after those 2AM text messages, and it can only mean one thing. Kibum knows how Donghae's brain works, knows how good his friend is at completely convincing himself of something utterly untrue within the space of a few hours.
All thoughts of what he's going to say to Donghae dies in his mind as he steps into the dance practice room and finds Donghae lying on the ground with a girl on top of him.
Kibum sees red.
"Ow, Yuri, I can't believe you fell on me again, maybe we shouldn't try that formation anymore -" Donghae is saying, face twisted in a grimace, but all Kibum can see is the way the girl has her arms against Donghae's chest and the way their legs are tangled together, and the next thing he knows, he's physically pulling the girl to her feet and away from Donghae.
"Kibum? What are you doing here?" Donghae asks, confusion colouring his words, but Kibum's attention is focused on glaring at the girl until she physically steps back.
"Leave. Now," he says slowly through gritted teeth, ignoring the little voice in his head telling him that he's being unreasonable about this, and the girl hesitates for a second before picking up her jacket from the side.
"I guess we'll have to cut practice short for today, Donghae-oppa," she says, then walks out without another word. The door closes with a thud after her.
"Kibum, what are you doing here -" Donghae starts again, but Kibum doesn't let him finish.
"What do you think you were doing," he says, voice low. It scares him a little, how much he's affected just seeing Donghae with another girl, but for now he pushes that thought to the back of his thoughts and focuses instead on trying to keep his hands from shaking.
"What? I was just practicing the new dance steps with Yuri -"
"That's not what I saw." Kibum cuts him off, the green monster in his stomach rearing its head again. He can hear his father's voice in the back of his mind - Jealousy is an ugly thing, Kibum-ah - but he can't seem to stop it, just like he can't control how his stomach drops at the thought of Donghae with someone - anyone - else.
"I don't know what you mean," Donghae says, voice suddenly sharp, possibly hearing a hint of the sneer in Kibum's voice.
"She was taking advantage of you!" Kibum finally bursts, unable to keep his voice down anymore.
"What are you talking about, no she wasn't!"
"Yes she was, you're just too naive to know anything!"
Donghae shakes his head, voice strangely bitter. "Of course, naive, that's what I am. Why do you even care, Kibum," he asks, looking up to meet Kibum's eyes, and the lack of any sort of suffix after his own name sounds odd to Kibum's ears.
Guilt gnaws at his stomach as he suddenly notices how pale Donghae looks, notices the dark circles under his friends' eyes. Kibum wonders how much sleep Donghae had gotten in the last few days. "Because you're my best friend," he says quietly, not knowing what else he can say.
Donghae laughs, low and sharp - nothing like his usual open laughter - and Kibum almost flinches at the sound. "Best friend, how could I forget. That's why you tell Kyuhyun everything before me now, right?"
"What, no, that's not it, you have it all wrong -" Kibum tries to explain, but Donghae isn't listening anymore.
"Then why? You don't have to pretend, Kibum. I know I might not be smart or talented like you, but that doesn't meant I'm stupid, and I know when I'm not wanted -"
Kibum stares at Donghae as if he'd sprouted a second head, something like horror catching in his chest as the other continues his monologue. Was this what Donghae had been thinking all weekend? That Kibum didn't want him around?
How had Donghae managed to get everything completely backwards? How could Kibum have let him?
"Donghae, please," he finally interrupts, clapping a hand to Donghae's mouth. Donghae stops talking abruptly, eyes blinking owlishly. Kibum exhales loudly, trying to ignore the way his heart is threatening to pound out of his ribcage. An angry Donghae, he could (possibly) live with, but not a sad one - not a Donghae who thought Kibum didn't want him in his life. "There's something you should know," he says, voice suddenly soft.
Donghae continues to blink at him.
Before he can think about what he's doing (and all the reasons he shouldn't be doing this), Kibum leans forward, loops his arms around Donghae's neck, and kisses him.
~
Donghae tastes like coffee (the sugar-filled one he'd had for breakfast, no doubt). Kibum groans as the other boy reaches for the hem of his shirt, and wonders why he hadn't done this sooner.
~
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): kibummie, why are you so stupid
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): why didn't you tell me it was me earlier ):
kim kibum says (2:27AM): ...
kim kibum says (2:27AM): I was nervous, okay
kim kibum says (2:28AM): people don't exactly realize they've fallen in love with their best friend everyday
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): you love me?
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): like, really really love me? :3333
kim kibum says (2:29AM): ... maybe
kim kibum says (2:29AM): I'm going to bed now, hyung.
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:29AM): IT'S OKAY, I LOVE YOU TOO KIBUMMIE. :3 :3 :3
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:30AM): KIHAE HWAITING!
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:30AM): COME TO MY HOUSE AFTER SCHOOL TOMORROW, OKAY?
kim kibum has signed off.
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:31AM): :3!
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 has signed off.
--
1. sobbing mei, I'm sorry this sucks so hard.
2. I hope you had a great day though. :333
3. goldfish can produce ethanol - they teach you this in animal physiology or something (university, how useful) \OOO/
4. eats tofu
5. ♥
fic started: August 20, 2009
fic finished: August 24, 2009
super junior: kibum, kihae
pg, 2741 words
sj!movieAU. in which Donghae is Distracting and Kibum kind-of maybe has a crush on someone.
a/n: for meiface's birthday, who wanted texting during class in sj!movieverse. and since Kyuhyun was not in that and did not already have a set role, I conveniently made use of him. also, I have no idea how this got so long. ):
Halfway through biology, Kibum's derriere starts vibrating.
Thankful that he'd remembered to turn his ringtone off that morning, he's halfway through digging into his back jeans pocket when the teacher's voice interrupts his thoughts.
"Kibum-sshi, is everything alright?"
Apparently, he'd been less subtle than he'd hoped in his hunt for his phone. Mumbling a positive and giving a reassuring smile, Kibum carefully makes sure his textbook is blocking the teacher's view before turning to his cell.
ONE NEW TEXT MESSAGE.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:25AM):
HI KIBUMMIE.
In hindsight, it actually makes a lot of sense that any messages would be from Donghae. Kibum isn't exactly known for being Mr. Popular (if he's perfectly honest, he barely talks to anyone outside of Donghae and Kyuhyun), and his family members know better than to call or text during class. Ignoring the warmth blooming in the pit of his stomach, Kibum purposefully makes a show of putting the phone down on his desk and turning back to his notes, knowing that Donghae would be watching.
bzzz.
His phone vibrates loudly against the wooden desk half a second later, and the whole class (including the teacher) turns to look at him.
Biting back a curse, Kibum gives a feeble apology and gives up altogether on taking notes.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:26AM):
KIBUMMIE? WHAT ARE YOU DOING. WAKE UP!!!
TEXT FROM kim kibum (10:27AM):
how much sugar did you have for breakfast hyung
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:27AM):
did you know that goldfish pee ethanol if you don't give them oxygen!!!!
TEXT FROM kim kibum (10:29AM):
...donghae, I'm trying to listen to the teacher.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:29AM):
but it's true, they do! ):
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:30AM):
why won't you believe me ;~;
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:31AM):
HEY, let's go to my house. :D :D :D
TEXT FROM kim kibum (10:33AM):
I thought we were going anyway.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:34AM):
no, right now
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:34AM):
I'LL SEE YOU OUTSIDE OKAY
no, donghae wait, Kibum tries to type, but by the time he presses send and looks up, Donghae's seat is already empty. Which is fine with Kibum, really - he's perfectly happy letting Donghae go do whatever while he sits in biology class.
TEXT FROM lee donghae (10:40AM):
KIBUMMIE, LOOK DOWN!
... except no, not really. He tells himself that it's because Donghae is waving at him like a maniac from the front lawn, and if Kibum doesn't stop him soon, someone is going to look out the window and see Donghae and then Donghae is going to get in trouble. It certainly has nothing to do with how Kibum seems to have problems saying 'no' whenever Donghae is involved. Giving a mental sigh, he raises his hand, waiting for the teacher to look expectantly at him before explaining that his sister had just texted him about a minor family emergency and if he could please be excused. He ends with an earnest smile, followed by the usual "I'll make up the work as soon as possible".
The teacher looks hesitant for a second - it was against school policy to let students out without written notes, after all - but even if his reputation as top-student-in-every-possible-subject has lessened somewhat since becoming friends with Donghae, he still is Kim Kibum, and surely a model student like him wouldn't lie about something like this. Kibum hides a satisfied smile, knowing how the teacher would respond even before she nods and wishes him good luck with his family.
The number of family emergencies he's been having has increased drastically since he'd met Donghae, he thinks to himself as he makes his way down the stairs.
"Kibummie, you came!" Donghae beams at the sight of Kibum appearing at the front doors of the school building, his wide smile brighter than the sun. Kibum tries to convince himself that the tripping of his heart is to be blamed on running down the three flights of stairs from the biology classroom and has nothing to do with the way Donghae throws his arms around Kibum's shoulders.
~
Kibum glares. He glares so hard the back of Kyuhyun's head should theoretically have burst into flames from the eye contact alone.
"Wow, you have it so bad."
"Shut up," Kibum says without thinking, glaring harder, before realizing what Kyuhyun had just said. Suppressing a groan, he buries his face into Kyuhyun's couch, his I don't know what you're talking about sounding weak even to his own ears.
"For someone who's supposedly so smart, you're a bit of an idiot," Kyuhyun says bluntly, eyes not leaving the computer where he's winning yet another game of whatever he's playing - Kibum can't be bothered to find out. "Just hurry up and admit it, you're not fooling anyone but yourself. And maybe Donghae - but Donghae's Donghae, he's naive and clueless like that."
Kibum barely suppresses the involuntary urge to defend Donghae, the automatic no, be quiet, he's just innocent threatening to burst out of his mouth as it is. "Thank you, Mr. Helpful," he says instead through gritted teeth.
Besides, so what if he has a crush on Donghae? People get crushes on their classmates all the time, don't they? It's all part of growing up, his mother had said, and it's hardly Kibum's fault that Donghae has a perfectly adorable smile and perpetually windswept hair and -
Oh god, he's going to smother himself in the seat of Kyuhyun's couch if he ever thinks anything so sappy again.
As if sensing his internal monologue, Kyuhyun turns and just looks at him, rolling his eyes as the waves of why are you so stupid, god, why am I even friends with you practically ooze off him. Grinding his molars together, Kibum aims one of the cushions at Kyuhyun's head in retaliation.
It misses by a foot, and the younger boy smirks.
"Fuck, I need new friends." Kibum mumbles into the armrest.
"Oh my heart, it bleeds," Kyuhyun shoots back, not missing a beat. "You're being stupid, and you know it. Hurry up and tell him already."
"Shut up, I hate you," Kibum says in a display of perfect logic and coherence, and resists the urge to smother himself with a pillow.
~
Kibum gets into an argument with Donghae.
Kibum gets into a completely pointless argument with Donghae, spurred by his overall frustration at the feelings he may or may not have towards his best friend (and lack of sexual gratification, don't forget that bit, Kyuhyun adds helpfully) and now Donghae is mad and not talking to him.
You might be under the impression that with a personality like Donghae's, he would be incapable of being angry at someone for more than a few hours, but you would also be completely wrong. Even if Donghae has the sweetest disposition known to mankind for 99.999% of his life, no one does mad like Donghae does - because Donghae does mad the same way he does happy and cheerful and every other emotion. That is to say, wholeheartedly and singlemindedly.
Being ignored by Donghae means no text messages during class or 3AM chat conversations or being dragged off to Donghae's house after school. And as much as Kibum mentally grumbles about being distracted by the other boy 24/7, he comes to the somewhat horrifying realization that he'd somehow gone and gotten used to being distracted twenty-four hours a day in the last few years. He also discovers that he can apparently no longer get through classes without checking the text message inbox on his cell phone 2342423432 times.
"You're such an idiot," Kyuhyun tells him, tone snarky but eyes sympathetic, and Kibum looks away.
I miss you, he types into his cell that night, but flips his phone shut before his fingers can press send.
He apologizes first a week later, mostly because the whole stupid argument was his fault to begin with, but also because he can't stand having Donghae angry at him. Kibum knows that his apology is far from stellar, with him stumbling over every other word and terribly uncertain as to how to say I was just frustrated because I think I kind of like you but don't know how to tell you because you're my best friend without actually saying it. He makes do with vague explanations and hand gestures that he knows he himself would never be satisfied with, but Donghae just smiles, proclaiming it's okay Kibummie! I missed you, let's never fight again! immediately before launching himself at Kibum.
Kibum ignores the observation that Donghae fits perfectly into his arms.
~
Kyuhyun gets a Twitter.
Kyuhyun gets a Twitter and Kibum is going to kill him because not only does he get Donghae into it (which of course, means that Kibum has an account not long after), his first update is kibum is in love!~ and now Donghae is spamming Kibum's account with a million tweets all along the lines of OMG WHAT and why didn't I know about this kibummie ): and tell me tell me tell me!
Kibum manages to ignore it all well enough -
TEXT FROM lee donghae (1:45AM):
why don't you trust me anymore ;______;
- until Donghae texts him, and then it's something along the lines of emotional blackmail because there's no way he can let Donghae go on thinking Kibum doesn't trust him. And there lies the problem, because Kibum's not going to lie to his best friend, but there's no way Kibum can just tell him the truth either.
His only saving grace is that it's the weekend, and so Kibum has two days to figure out what he's going to say, provided Donghae doesn't show up at his doorstep.
Kyuhyun emails him Saturday afternoon (because Kibum has turned off his cellphone and instant messaging program and essentially all forms of instant eletronic contact).
from Cho Kyuhyun
to Kim Kibum
date Feb 20 at 7:22 PM
he likes you too, you know, just in case you were so dense you completely missed that
Kibum had completely missed that, but he's convinced Kyuhyun is lying his ass off. Kibum is an academic genius, thank you very much - some of it has to transfer to his social life, right? Clearly, his so-called "denseness" has less to do with him actually being dense and more to do with Donghae being uninterested.
Frankly, his life kind of sucks.
~
By the time Monday rolls around, Kibum still has no idea what to do.
He knows he does have to talk to Donghae though, because Donghae's actually made no move to contact Kibum after those 2AM text messages, and it can only mean one thing. Kibum knows how Donghae's brain works, knows how good his friend is at completely convincing himself of something utterly untrue within the space of a few hours.
All thoughts of what he's going to say to Donghae dies in his mind as he steps into the dance practice room and finds Donghae lying on the ground with a girl on top of him.
Kibum sees red.
"Ow, Yuri, I can't believe you fell on me again, maybe we shouldn't try that formation anymore -" Donghae is saying, face twisted in a grimace, but all Kibum can see is the way the girl has her arms against Donghae's chest and the way their legs are tangled together, and the next thing he knows, he's physically pulling the girl to her feet and away from Donghae.
"Kibum? What are you doing here?" Donghae asks, confusion colouring his words, but Kibum's attention is focused on glaring at the girl until she physically steps back.
"Leave. Now," he says slowly through gritted teeth, ignoring the little voice in his head telling him that he's being unreasonable about this, and the girl hesitates for a second before picking up her jacket from the side.
"I guess we'll have to cut practice short for today, Donghae-oppa," she says, then walks out without another word. The door closes with a thud after her.
"Kibum, what are you doing here -" Donghae starts again, but Kibum doesn't let him finish.
"What do you think you were doing," he says, voice low. It scares him a little, how much he's affected just seeing Donghae with another girl, but for now he pushes that thought to the back of his thoughts and focuses instead on trying to keep his hands from shaking.
"What? I was just practicing the new dance steps with Yuri -"
"That's not what I saw." Kibum cuts him off, the green monster in his stomach rearing its head again. He can hear his father's voice in the back of his mind - Jealousy is an ugly thing, Kibum-ah - but he can't seem to stop it, just like he can't control how his stomach drops at the thought of Donghae with someone - anyone - else.
"I don't know what you mean," Donghae says, voice suddenly sharp, possibly hearing a hint of the sneer in Kibum's voice.
"She was taking advantage of you!" Kibum finally bursts, unable to keep his voice down anymore.
"What are you talking about, no she wasn't!"
"Yes she was, you're just too naive to know anything!"
Donghae shakes his head, voice strangely bitter. "Of course, naive, that's what I am. Why do you even care, Kibum," he asks, looking up to meet Kibum's eyes, and the lack of any sort of suffix after his own name sounds odd to Kibum's ears.
Guilt gnaws at his stomach as he suddenly notices how pale Donghae looks, notices the dark circles under his friends' eyes. Kibum wonders how much sleep Donghae had gotten in the last few days. "Because you're my best friend," he says quietly, not knowing what else he can say.
Donghae laughs, low and sharp - nothing like his usual open laughter - and Kibum almost flinches at the sound. "Best friend, how could I forget. That's why you tell Kyuhyun everything before me now, right?"
"What, no, that's not it, you have it all wrong -" Kibum tries to explain, but Donghae isn't listening anymore.
"Then why? You don't have to pretend, Kibum. I know I might not be smart or talented like you, but that doesn't meant I'm stupid, and I know when I'm not wanted -"
Kibum stares at Donghae as if he'd sprouted a second head, something like horror catching in his chest as the other continues his monologue. Was this what Donghae had been thinking all weekend? That Kibum didn't want him around?
How had Donghae managed to get everything completely backwards? How could Kibum have let him?
"Donghae, please," he finally interrupts, clapping a hand to Donghae's mouth. Donghae stops talking abruptly, eyes blinking owlishly. Kibum exhales loudly, trying to ignore the way his heart is threatening to pound out of his ribcage. An angry Donghae, he could (possibly) live with, but not a sad one - not a Donghae who thought Kibum didn't want him in his life. "There's something you should know," he says, voice suddenly soft.
Donghae continues to blink at him.
Before he can think about what he's doing (and all the reasons he shouldn't be doing this), Kibum leans forward, loops his arms around Donghae's neck, and kisses him.
~
Donghae tastes like coffee (the sugar-filled one he'd had for breakfast, no doubt). Kibum groans as the other boy reaches for the hem of his shirt, and wonders why he hadn't done this sooner.
~
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): kibummie, why are you so stupid
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): why didn't you tell me it was me earlier ):
kim kibum says (2:27AM): ...
kim kibum says (2:27AM): I was nervous, okay
kim kibum says (2:28AM): people don't exactly realize they've fallen in love with their best friend everyday
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): you love me?
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:26AM): like, really really love me? :3333
kim kibum says (2:29AM): ... maybe
kim kibum says (2:29AM): I'm going to bed now, hyung.
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:29AM): IT'S OKAY, I LOVE YOU TOO KIBUMMIE. :3 :3 :3
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:30AM): KIHAE HWAITING!
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:30AM): COME TO MY HOUSE AFTER SCHOOL TOMORROW, OKAY?
kim kibum has signed off.
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 says (2:31AM): :3!
fishy fishy! 大家好我是李东海 has signed off.
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1. sobbing mei, I'm sorry this sucks so hard.
2. I hope you had a great day though. :333
3. goldfish can produce ethanol - they teach you this in animal physiology or something (university, how useful) \OOO/
4. eats tofu
5. ♥
fic started: August 20, 2009
fic finished: August 24, 2009