All Good Things Must Come To An End :(
This is really stupid. I realize we're not together anymore, but that doesn't mean you need to go around calling me a cunt, and telling me to fuck off, and go to hell. I know you were pissed off, but that was really immature. You call me immature, but I'm not the one going around trying to empress all of my little girlfriends by being an ass to my ex. So that's a contradiction on your part. I also don't see what I did to you that was so bad that you would go as far as calling me a cunt, and telling me you "never want to hear my disgusting name again". I realize I had some issues going on, but you weren't exactly the model boyfriend yourself. But I lived with it. I saw past your flaws, which is something you obviously couldn't do. You broke up with me over something that was salvageable, but instead, you did what you promised me you would never do. And that was quitting when things got hard. That's something I never did. Even when you went through your drug phase, I stayed with you. I stayed with you because I knew you were better than that, and obviously you needed some form of guidance. That right there, is the perfect example of not quitting when things were difficult. I never should have had to go through any of that, but I did. I've never once tried to hurt you intentionally. I tried to be the best person I could, and apparently that wasn't good enough. I've done so much for you Steve.. I helped you with the phone bill, I bought you your belts as a "just because", I got you your jacket, I put up with Scott and all your other friends that were always tweaked, everything. And I'm sorry that wasn't good enough. But even though you screwed up, I stayed with you...because I loved you. You try naming all the things you've done for me. I'll bet your list won't be half as long. Through the whole 7.5 months, I lied to you one time. One time, and that was about going to Scott's. But I came clean about that. You've lied to me countless times, and for some unknown reason, I still have a little bit of trust in you. You try to say I had you whipped, but it was actually the other way around. I'm the one who gave up hanging out with my friends, I put modeling on hold, I sacrificed a lot, just to spend time with you, that I never once complained about, or held against you. That was my decision, and I never once would have changed a minute of it. I still honestly think your a great person. Deep down, your the sweetest person I've ever met, and I hope you don't ever let anyone change that quality in you. I don't expect a reply, but I do want you to know, that I don't want you to hate me. After everything you said to me on Thanksgiving, I have every right to, and I even tried, but for some reason, I couldn't. So please, at least be civil toward me, and don't hate me. I still want a friendship, because you were my best friend, and I couldn't have ever loved anyone more.
Cheyenne
Cheyenne