You can't help but wonder about the future, Mr. Richter. I, too, have received some rather distressing news about the future, or rather lack thereof, of my people.
I...it's painful. Having someone around you who understands the pain and frustration helps, but ultimately you have to accept that all things happen in time.
My friend would say not knowing is much more fun, but then he looks at any tribulation as a challenge to laugh at so I occasionally doubt his sanity.
Yes and no, I have a close friend, who understands perfectly the pain and anger I feel at my future loss. But he has already lived through it and I try not to remind him of that time so as to spare him further pain.
I think what bothers me most is knowing something is going to happen, and then realizing that when I leave this place, I'll forget. Any hope of altering or changing that tragedy....gone.
I would doubt his sanity, too. And maybe punch him in the mouth.
...that one I totally get. The whole not wanting to remind people of stuff they went through. Or...reminding people of things they did or haven't did. Or just...awkward relationship bull.
Some people say this place feels like a vacation. I say it feels like a breath you're being forced to hold.
I think a person's burdens that they carry with them to this place denotes how they feel about it. A caring person may feel helpless that those they care for are not there for them to look after. Those recently attached may find them selves adrift. And those that were once optimistic may find that there's nothing left to be optimistic about.
Those who "adjust" quickly seem to be those with few ties, or few responsibilities...or those who manage to find new ones. New people to look after and protect, new attachments.
At the very least those "attachments" could turn out to be friends, couldn't they? This new job you're describing, could it help ease some of the frustration and unease?
I don't know. It's private investigations work, so...I guess you could say that hearing all about other people's problems doesn't really lessen your own.
That's something, but perhaps you can look at it this way:
You may have to listen to people's problems, but you also help them find answers and give them solutions. Just because it's you job and you get paid, doesn't lessen the honor that can be found. You're helping people in need, are you not?
I...it's painful. Having someone around you who understands the pain and frustration helps, but ultimately you have to accept that all things happen in time.
Perhaps it is simply time for those things.
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Do you have anyone around who understands your frustration? I'm sure that'd help, so.
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Yes and no, I have a close friend, who understands perfectly the pain and anger I feel at my future loss. But he has already lived through it and I try not to remind him of that time so as to spare him further pain.
I think what bothers me most is knowing something is going to happen, and then realizing that when I leave this place, I'll forget. Any hope of altering or changing that tragedy....gone.
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...that one I totally get. The whole not wanting to remind people of stuff they went through. Or...reminding people of things they did or haven't did. Or just...awkward relationship bull.
Some people say this place feels like a vacation. I say it feels like a breath you're being forced to hold.
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I think a person's burdens that they carry with them to this place denotes how they feel about it. A caring person may feel helpless that those they care for are not there for them to look after. Those recently attached may find them selves adrift. And those that were once optimistic may find that there's nothing left to be optimistic about.
Those who "adjust" quickly seem to be those with few ties, or few responsibilities...or those who manage to find new ones. New people to look after and protect, new attachments.
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I was once angry. I'm still pretty much angry. Except now I'm apparently angry and can't do anything for fear of the fist of an angry god.
Maybe I should find some new attachments and stop thinking about history.
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Keeps me busy enough not to think, though.
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You may have to listen to people's problems, but you also help them find answers and give them solutions. Just because it's you job and you get paid, doesn't lessen the honor that can be found. You're helping people in need, are you not?
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