(no subject)
today someone commented on how i should smile more, inferring that i do not smile, or at least have not in a very long time. damn. i thought i could fake happiness, but as it turns out you'd need some energy for that, and energy i have not. :(
lack of sleep takes a toll on your body, i probably have ulcers too. or a mass loss of brain cells. He was right though, i'm not happy. i haven't been in a while. not to say im depressed, just nothing to be smiling about. no studying getting done, no apps getting done, i feel like everyone else is enjoying their senior year or at least LIFE but me. i just try and work on the next task i have, a task list so long that it really makes me want to cry. I don't really know what i'm complaining about, maybe because all i do lately is complain. i'm not exactly sure what kind of help i need either.
i need some stimulation though. something to look forward to. something to not worry about.
lack of sleep takes a toll on your body, i probably have ulcers too. or a mass loss of brain cells. He was right though, i'm not happy. i haven't been in a while. not to say im depressed, just nothing to be smiling about. no studying getting done, no apps getting done, i feel like everyone else is enjoying their senior year or at least LIFE but me. i just try and work on the next task i have, a task list so long that it really makes me want to cry. I don't really know what i'm complaining about, maybe because all i do lately is complain. i'm not exactly sure what kind of help i need either.
i need some stimulation though. something to look forward to. something to not worry about.