I love softball, I miss softball, I NEED softball.
Everyday of my life, I think about you, I spend time with you, and I love you, and I don't want anything to come between us. Everything seemed to be going so well, it seemed like my future was planned out, to be with you, I knew where we were headed, together, and it all seemed so perfect. But in one terrible day, my life seemed to be ripped away from you. It feels like 6 years have gone down the drain. I still love you, I still think about you, I still want to be with you everyday, but somethings don't work out the way you planned. Now it's been a month, a whole month, people have been begging me to spend less time with you, and I can't handle it anymore. I've come to a point where I need you so bad, I've sunken so low that I'm desperate to be with you. I will do anything for a chance to play. I can't leave you behind, theres no way my life could be the same. I would ask for one more day with you, and that day would be the most amazing day of my life, but I know, when that day is through, I will sink back into the hole i fell into a month ago. I love you far too much to ever let you go, I will do what I can to keep you by my side. As much pain as I have to go through, just to be with you, it's worth it. I don't care if how many ajustments I have to make to be with you, I will find a way. No one can keep up apart, nothing can keep us apart. I have been up in the depths of night, thinking about being with you, dreaming of one last chance. The last time we were together wasn't good enough for me, I'm not ending our friendship like that; it's not going to happen, theres no way I will let it. I will ignore the pain, I will do anything, to spend at least these three years with you. I promised you I would be there for these next three years, and I will keep that promise. It might not be exactly the same (though we wish it could be) I will find a way. I will always be looking out for you, you've changed my life so much, and I'm not going to let that slip away. The friends I have met through you have been amazing, you have been amazing. I'm sorry if we will have to end it like this. I will try my hardest not to let it happen, but incase it does, I want you to know that I'm sorry it didn't end quite the way we planned it, but I will always love you, and I will always miss you, but I'll be watching from the sidelines every chance I get. I hope and pray that this is not good-bye. I love you, be well, and do good.