what a fucking wast of waking up
well this mornin hasnt really been all that bad except i have no damn car.. i am soo freakin upset right now.. i have beeen stuck at my house all damn week .. i fuckin hate not having a car.. i am not taking rides from anyone ne more
if i cant get there my self i aint goin .. im tired of me having to rely on other people and wait on them .. to come and get me or take me home.. i fucking hate it .. i am so pissed off right now . there is no reason why i shouldnt have a car my dad is a fuckin liar.. he said by the middle of january i would have it .. well its luike the end ... sooo what the fuck... oh well i guess i will juss stay home sit on my ass and get fatter .. oh well who gives a shit.. alls i wanna do is get outta the house and i can t... there is no way i can possibly leave... and tommorow... i have to babysit.. i completely forgot.. and i dunno if dadddy will let jonathan come over or not.. well i havent seen him in a week now .. and it dont looklike i am gonna see him .. ne time son .. soo what the fuck ever... i feel like shit now.. oh well im used to it.. i need a cigarette
oh well
i dont care ne more.. well yesterday when i was like all pissed i made a list of stufff
the top 10 reasons ali's life sux
1. i am getting like way chubby and i dunno why .. oh yea cause i cant do ne thing
2. i have no fucking car.. so ihave to rely on other people( not my strong point)
3. i havent seen jonathan in almost a week
4. everytime in the past while i have talked to him he has gotten pissed off at me...
5. he didnt trust me ( resolved last night)
6. made me feel like shit(also resolved last night)
7. all day long at school i sit here .. and do absolutely fucking nothing
8. my dad still thinks im a piece of shit who does nothing and respects nothing and he thinks i am completely oblivious to everything in the world but jonathan ...
9. my mom is a bitch
10. all i wanna do is leave and i cant cause iam trapped like a damn rat in a maze... everytime i try to get out or do something i find a dead end .. with no damn cheese...
u know whats sad... i dunno ... i miss guard casue at least it gave me an escape .. somewhere to go ... cause it was mandatory .. and some way to vetn .. and relieve all this built up tension ...
but still even now when i pick up my rifle i feel like a fucktard cause i dont feel like i can do it ne more... well ne wasy the bell is bout to ring i will finish later .. bitching even though nothing is gonns happen ... yea ... well peace out
if i cant get there my self i aint goin .. im tired of me having to rely on other people and wait on them .. to come and get me or take me home.. i fucking hate it .. i am so pissed off right now . there is no reason why i shouldnt have a car my dad is a fuckin liar.. he said by the middle of january i would have it .. well its luike the end ... sooo what the fuck... oh well i guess i will juss stay home sit on my ass and get fatter .. oh well who gives a shit.. alls i wanna do is get outta the house and i can t... there is no way i can possibly leave... and tommorow... i have to babysit.. i completely forgot.. and i dunno if dadddy will let jonathan come over or not.. well i havent seen him in a week now .. and it dont looklike i am gonna see him .. ne time son .. soo what the fuck ever... i feel like shit now.. oh well im used to it.. i need a cigarette
oh well
i dont care ne more.. well yesterday when i was like all pissed i made a list of stufff
the top 10 reasons ali's life sux
1. i am getting like way chubby and i dunno why .. oh yea cause i cant do ne thing
2. i have no fucking car.. so ihave to rely on other people( not my strong point)
3. i havent seen jonathan in almost a week
4. everytime in the past while i have talked to him he has gotten pissed off at me...
5. he didnt trust me ( resolved last night)
6. made me feel like shit(also resolved last night)
7. all day long at school i sit here .. and do absolutely fucking nothing
8. my dad still thinks im a piece of shit who does nothing and respects nothing and he thinks i am completely oblivious to everything in the world but jonathan ...
9. my mom is a bitch
10. all i wanna do is leave and i cant cause iam trapped like a damn rat in a maze... everytime i try to get out or do something i find a dead end .. with no damn cheese...
u know whats sad... i dunno ... i miss guard casue at least it gave me an escape .. somewhere to go ... cause it was mandatory .. and some way to vetn .. and relieve all this built up tension ...
but still even now when i pick up my rifle i feel like a fucktard cause i dont feel like i can do it ne more... well ne wasy the bell is bout to ring i will finish later .. bitching even though nothing is gonns happen ... yea ... well peace out