Saturday ......
Thank you guys for your comments. Nadine, I did call you the other day, i left a message. I havent seen you in awhile, maybe we could get together or something. And Sister, I know that you dont think that i should get back with Brian, but really it just depends on how i feel about it. i do appreciate you responding its just that i dont know, maybe he has bad qualities and maybe he cant spell but he did and still does mean alot to me. i am just very confused about the whole situation. There really is no situation its just me trying to find out what i want in this life, right now as well as in the future.
WEll my weekend was alright. i met a guy named Sage, Well Jon really but thats what we call him. Anyways hes a hottie, he's 19 and he taller than me :) which is a big plus. Hes funny and kinda rambunctious. Im pretty sure i spelled that wrong. The night was pretty lame because naomi is changing alot. Don't get me wrong, but she is getting to be religios and i guess since i dont believe what the christians believe its harder for me to relate to them. Also it annoys me when she is thinking about being baptized and i know more about the bible than she does. Maybe she has more morals and is less of a sinner than me but i doubt if she really knows what she is doing. IF was a christian, i dont think i would get baptized untill i knew it was right and knew i was done making mistakes. it wipes your slate clean supposedly and then all the sins you make you actually have to repent for to be " forgiven" by god or whom ever that person may be. That would be a huge problem for me. Half if not more of the sins i make i either dont regret or am glad i did them because i learn things on my own istead of reading the "good" book and learning from other's mistakes. I dont see that as a way of living. You have to learn for yourself not from others mistakes that may not even be true. i dont believe in reading the Bible to be Holy because then i would only be obeying "rules" that may or may not be made up. No one really knows what happens when you die and i want to have lived a good life full of mistakes i have made and learned from and fun that i have along the way. Besides why are all the good things sins? ( exclulding Murder Ofcourse) I guess the god that they beleive in wants to much from these people. Were Adam and eve married? i dont know thats why i am asking. anyways religion sucks theres way to many rules and shit.
Anyways well i went shopping and got some new clothes. also BRian sent me a few more letters from Georgia, HE sent me flowers that he picked and he wrote me a song. he really is a sweet guy for all of you who dont believe so. He is a pussy sometime i wont deny that but alot of guys are, not that it matters.
not much has been going on in my life besides brian and the changing of naomi , its almost like i am losing her as a friend, we no longer share as many interests as we used to i guess maybe i am the one who needs to do some changing. i know i have changed alot this year but there are times that i slip up and get set back i my old ways but its not easy to do a 360 in a few months. its sad to think of all the things i think are fun that ive missed out on just because i wanted to change for Brian when as soon as he leaves i un-change, its like ive been lying to myself and everyone around me but i was so naive to believe myself, that it was true but when i think about it i havent changed. ive become alittle more wise i suppose and yeah ive always known alot in my opinion but theres not much i can do about it. i am who i am and thats just how it is going to stay.
i dont know what else to say. theres not much to say so untill next time
Well yeah. Sage is really hot ha ha ha
WEll my weekend was alright. i met a guy named Sage, Well Jon really but thats what we call him. Anyways hes a hottie, he's 19 and he taller than me :) which is a big plus. Hes funny and kinda rambunctious. Im pretty sure i spelled that wrong. The night was pretty lame because naomi is changing alot. Don't get me wrong, but she is getting to be religios and i guess since i dont believe what the christians believe its harder for me to relate to them. Also it annoys me when she is thinking about being baptized and i know more about the bible than she does. Maybe she has more morals and is less of a sinner than me but i doubt if she really knows what she is doing. IF was a christian, i dont think i would get baptized untill i knew it was right and knew i was done making mistakes. it wipes your slate clean supposedly and then all the sins you make you actually have to repent for to be " forgiven" by god or whom ever that person may be. That would be a huge problem for me. Half if not more of the sins i make i either dont regret or am glad i did them because i learn things on my own istead of reading the "good" book and learning from other's mistakes. I dont see that as a way of living. You have to learn for yourself not from others mistakes that may not even be true. i dont believe in reading the Bible to be Holy because then i would only be obeying "rules" that may or may not be made up. No one really knows what happens when you die and i want to have lived a good life full of mistakes i have made and learned from and fun that i have along the way. Besides why are all the good things sins? ( exclulding Murder Ofcourse) I guess the god that they beleive in wants to much from these people. Were Adam and eve married? i dont know thats why i am asking. anyways religion sucks theres way to many rules and shit.
Anyways well i went shopping and got some new clothes. also BRian sent me a few more letters from Georgia, HE sent me flowers that he picked and he wrote me a song. he really is a sweet guy for all of you who dont believe so. He is a pussy sometime i wont deny that but alot of guys are, not that it matters.
not much has been going on in my life besides brian and the changing of naomi , its almost like i am losing her as a friend, we no longer share as many interests as we used to i guess maybe i am the one who needs to do some changing. i know i have changed alot this year but there are times that i slip up and get set back i my old ways but its not easy to do a 360 in a few months. its sad to think of all the things i think are fun that ive missed out on just because i wanted to change for Brian when as soon as he leaves i un-change, its like ive been lying to myself and everyone around me but i was so naive to believe myself, that it was true but when i think about it i havent changed. ive become alittle more wise i suppose and yeah ive always known alot in my opinion but theres not much i can do about it. i am who i am and thats just how it is going to stay.
i dont know what else to say. theres not much to say so untill next time
Well yeah. Sage is really hot ha ha ha