i think i miss you most on wednesdays and saturdays.
lately, i've felt kind of lonerly in band.
i don't think i was ever really close with anyone in band to begin with. i've always felt like something of an outsider with them, even back at gys, but lately i've been feeling it more. i guess because there's no one that i really talk to in band who i feel i can really really relate to. there's a freshman that listens to tbs and we get along but she has her friends and i have mine (outside of band).
there's always margie, but i've felt distanced from her since freshman year.
then there's sarah and vanessa but they're both in pit and we only have a few classes together.
hannah, i don't really talk to.
scott, i don't really talk to.
stephanie, i say hi to once in a while.
tati, she's cool and fun to hang around but she does her thing with drumline.
dezi's all right to talk with when i actually decide to stop distancing myself.
and fabio's always a person i can easily sit back and relax with.
basically, i just don't really feel like i connect very well with anyone there. mr. jensen & scott were talking about how the band is a family and what not but i kind of think i'm that third cousin twice removed that no one really talks about. i don't know if it's because of me or because of everyone else. at any rate, i don't enjoy feeling like a tag-along with everyone.
i always feel like the third wheel if stephanie, kristin and margie decide to head up to the library bathroom. or like i'm not wanted when the group decides to head to denny's or grazi's after a field show or a football game or...whatever.
it sucks but i don't know what to do about it because i don't know where the problem is.
kisses and tissues,
'lisha.
i don't think i was ever really close with anyone in band to begin with. i've always felt like something of an outsider with them, even back at gys, but lately i've been feeling it more. i guess because there's no one that i really talk to in band who i feel i can really really relate to. there's a freshman that listens to tbs and we get along but she has her friends and i have mine (outside of band).
there's always margie, but i've felt distanced from her since freshman year.
then there's sarah and vanessa but they're both in pit and we only have a few classes together.
hannah, i don't really talk to.
scott, i don't really talk to.
stephanie, i say hi to once in a while.
tati, she's cool and fun to hang around but she does her thing with drumline.
dezi's all right to talk with when i actually decide to stop distancing myself.
and fabio's always a person i can easily sit back and relax with.
basically, i just don't really feel like i connect very well with anyone there. mr. jensen & scott were talking about how the band is a family and what not but i kind of think i'm that third cousin twice removed that no one really talks about. i don't know if it's because of me or because of everyone else. at any rate, i don't enjoy feeling like a tag-along with everyone.
i always feel like the third wheel if stephanie, kristin and margie decide to head up to the library bathroom. or like i'm not wanted when the group decides to head to denny's or grazi's after a field show or a football game or...whatever.
it sucks but i don't know what to do about it because i don't know where the problem is.
kisses and tissues,
'lisha.