Sue meh...
...I know I haven't written in...oh almost 3 months. But that's okay. Not too much has happened. I'll break my life down into sections! God this is sad...
Work: I help my dad out at his office now answering phones. It's pretty easy. I basically just sit there and read or whatever. At the theater I'm doing pretty good. Suna actually likes me now. She's called me in 2 times in the last 4 days, but I've said no. One time cuz I had a hangover and the other just cuz I didn't want to. My check this month should be considerably bigger because two weeks into it I checked how much I should be getting and it was more than what I'd made last month all together. Yay!
Fun: Well, I bought a PS2 which was fun. I became addicted to Final Fantasy X-2 and plan on buying XI soon. X-2 broke though so I traded it in for Kingdom Hearts and Dragonball Z: Budokai (Zach's idea. *gag*) because they didn't have another one of it. So hey Manda if you're reading this...can you order Final Fantasy X-2 for PS2 used off Amazon for me too? I get paid in a couple days so I'll pay you right away! Thank ya! And I order Hack Sign Part 1 for PS2 and The Summoner or something like that. Not sure if I got the first or second one though. Ummm, the concert was on the 24th. It didn't go so well. People were sneaking in and the grandstands were like 1/4 full. I feel so bad for my dad. He's just starting to feel better about it. *sighs* Ummm, the night of the concert me and Elyse and Zach decided to get drunk. This should probably have an entire section of its own lol. We were doing a shot game where we flipped a coin and whoever guessed it right didn't have to take a shot and whoever got it wrong did. And then the person who had gotten it wrong had to do the next round with the next person. Elyse was losing...or winning depending on how you look at it. And I had only had 9 shots. So we decided it'd be a good idea to chug a bunch. From then on the night is a bit fuzzy. I apparently kissed Elyse a lot on the cheek. And she kissed me on the lips one or two times. Lol! I called Amanda though I don't remember much of what I said. I threw up. That part I remember vividly as it happened like 6 times. Erm...I confessed my love for Arturo apparently. ROFL! *dies* And said that I don't really like Stoner and I want to break up with him. I think I also said that his friend Brad is hot. I think I will rot in hell. I cried several times though I don't remember any. And another part I remember clearly is sitting in the window of our tower hanging out. Holding on to the window frame just leaning as far as I could. I was talking to myself about how I wanted to jump and stuff and I was thinking about doing it when I kinda blacked out. Well, I was still awake, but I don't remember a section of this. Then I came to when Zach was in the doorway asking me who I was talking to, to which I replied intelligently, "Myself!" Lol. My mom came up and knew something was up so we told her in the morning. She was surprisingly not mad at all. *shrug* Go figure. I think I told her I love her like 6 times so she didn't care. (While I was drunk mind you!)
"Personal": Okay should have saved this part for last considering it's more complicated. I'm going out with Stoner...but I don't think I REALLY like him. I like him more as a friend, but yeah...I dunno. This is so confuzzling! I really don't want a boyfriend right now either. And after Saturday when I was drunkenly raving about my unspoken feelings for Artie...I don't know what to think. I don't think I really like him anymore...but I'm not sure. And if there's a chance that I do still feel that way about him, I don't think it's really fair to Stoner to have me feeling that way. Ya know what I mean? Now, I've successfully avoided him for about a week, let's see if I can figure out a way to dump him gently. Lol.
My Nasty Little Habit: I'm very happy to say that I haven't cut in...about 4 weeks. That's a month right? Yay! Go me! I've decided not to say I'm quitting totally. But that I'll just try to save that for when I'm really hurting. Not for stupid little squabbles with Zach or something like that! *nods*
Most Exciting Thing In My Life!!!: I'm leaving for Seattle to meet Whitney who I met on the internet in like 9 days! Yay! I've been talking to her for a few years and yeah. I convinced my mom to let me go. She says that she'll meet Whitney and her mom, stay for a few days with a friend of her own and come back. *I* get to stay for count 'em 12 days! Yay!!!! Wooooooooot! I'm so excited. Can you tell? It'll be a nice escape from reality...from feelings...from basically everything! :D Yay!
Well I think that's my life in a nutshell. A very big, confusing, ugly, mis-shapen nutshell. *smirks* But yeah! I'll try to write more later, but no promises. I'm so not in the commitment mood. ;)
--Alissa
Work: I help my dad out at his office now answering phones. It's pretty easy. I basically just sit there and read or whatever. At the theater I'm doing pretty good. Suna actually likes me now. She's called me in 2 times in the last 4 days, but I've said no. One time cuz I had a hangover and the other just cuz I didn't want to. My check this month should be considerably bigger because two weeks into it I checked how much I should be getting and it was more than what I'd made last month all together. Yay!
Fun: Well, I bought a PS2 which was fun. I became addicted to Final Fantasy X-2 and plan on buying XI soon. X-2 broke though so I traded it in for Kingdom Hearts and Dragonball Z: Budokai (Zach's idea. *gag*) because they didn't have another one of it. So hey Manda if you're reading this...can you order Final Fantasy X-2 for PS2 used off Amazon for me too? I get paid in a couple days so I'll pay you right away! Thank ya! And I order Hack Sign Part 1 for PS2 and The Summoner or something like that. Not sure if I got the first or second one though. Ummm, the concert was on the 24th. It didn't go so well. People were sneaking in and the grandstands were like 1/4 full. I feel so bad for my dad. He's just starting to feel better about it. *sighs* Ummm, the night of the concert me and Elyse and Zach decided to get drunk. This should probably have an entire section of its own lol. We were doing a shot game where we flipped a coin and whoever guessed it right didn't have to take a shot and whoever got it wrong did. And then the person who had gotten it wrong had to do the next round with the next person. Elyse was losing...or winning depending on how you look at it. And I had only had 9 shots. So we decided it'd be a good idea to chug a bunch. From then on the night is a bit fuzzy. I apparently kissed Elyse a lot on the cheek. And she kissed me on the lips one or two times. Lol! I called Amanda though I don't remember much of what I said. I threw up. That part I remember vividly as it happened like 6 times. Erm...I confessed my love for Arturo apparently. ROFL! *dies* And said that I don't really like Stoner and I want to break up with him. I think I also said that his friend Brad is hot. I think I will rot in hell. I cried several times though I don't remember any. And another part I remember clearly is sitting in the window of our tower hanging out. Holding on to the window frame just leaning as far as I could. I was talking to myself about how I wanted to jump and stuff and I was thinking about doing it when I kinda blacked out. Well, I was still awake, but I don't remember a section of this. Then I came to when Zach was in the doorway asking me who I was talking to, to which I replied intelligently, "Myself!" Lol. My mom came up and knew something was up so we told her in the morning. She was surprisingly not mad at all. *shrug* Go figure. I think I told her I love her like 6 times so she didn't care. (While I was drunk mind you!)
"Personal": Okay should have saved this part for last considering it's more complicated. I'm going out with Stoner...but I don't think I REALLY like him. I like him more as a friend, but yeah...I dunno. This is so confuzzling! I really don't want a boyfriend right now either. And after Saturday when I was drunkenly raving about my unspoken feelings for Artie...I don't know what to think. I don't think I really like him anymore...but I'm not sure. And if there's a chance that I do still feel that way about him, I don't think it's really fair to Stoner to have me feeling that way. Ya know what I mean? Now, I've successfully avoided him for about a week, let's see if I can figure out a way to dump him gently. Lol.
My Nasty Little Habit: I'm very happy to say that I haven't cut in...about 4 weeks. That's a month right? Yay! Go me! I've decided not to say I'm quitting totally. But that I'll just try to save that for when I'm really hurting. Not for stupid little squabbles with Zach or something like that! *nods*
Most Exciting Thing In My Life!!!: I'm leaving for Seattle to meet Whitney who I met on the internet in like 9 days! Yay! I've been talking to her for a few years and yeah. I convinced my mom to let me go. She says that she'll meet Whitney and her mom, stay for a few days with a friend of her own and come back. *I* get to stay for count 'em 12 days! Yay!!!! Wooooooooot! I'm so excited. Can you tell? It'll be a nice escape from reality...from feelings...from basically everything! :D Yay!
Well I think that's my life in a nutshell. A very big, confusing, ugly, mis-shapen nutshell. *smirks* But yeah! I'll try to write more later, but no promises. I'm so not in the commitment mood. ;)
--Alissa