Just Let Me Bitch...
I love Steven with all my heart. I really do.
It is just so frustrating being engaged to someone in the Military. A year ago I never would have guessed that I'd be at this point in my life, nor would any of my friends. It's just so hard because I want to simply hear Steven's voice. That's all. I mean, obviously, I want to be with him & be able to see him, but I haven't talked to him in 3 weeks now. For the year prior to these past three weeks we had spoken everyday, usually more than once. I'm trying to be strong, but I just miss him so much. I'm actually starting to regret my decision to stay here and finish my degree instead of just getting married and going with him. Of course, I realize that I'd still be in the same position right now (since he's on deployment), but for some reason that doesn't really help.
I just miss him a lot and I wish I wasn't in this position right now. Steven's really busy on the ship, and I'm feeling a little neglected. I know that it's not his fault, and he would be here with me if he could. I am really anxious to be able to spend time with him.
It is just so frustrating being engaged to someone in the Military. A year ago I never would have guessed that I'd be at this point in my life, nor would any of my friends. It's just so hard because I want to simply hear Steven's voice. That's all. I mean, obviously, I want to be with him & be able to see him, but I haven't talked to him in 3 weeks now. For the year prior to these past three weeks we had spoken everyday, usually more than once. I'm trying to be strong, but I just miss him so much. I'm actually starting to regret my decision to stay here and finish my degree instead of just getting married and going with him. Of course, I realize that I'd still be in the same position right now (since he's on deployment), but for some reason that doesn't really help.
I just miss him a lot and I wish I wasn't in this position right now. Steven's really busy on the ship, and I'm feeling a little neglected. I know that it's not his fault, and he would be here with me if he could. I am really anxious to be able to spend time with him.