I can't believe it's almost over..
Reality struck me today... I have one week of class left. ONE WEEK. And then two finals, and then I'm done with college.. Done.
I have an interview in New York City after Christmas. I'm trying to line up a few more while I'm out there, but the idea of moving there seems so strange.
I've spent the last chunk of my life in college. Studying (sometimes), partying, meeting people.. All working up to this point where I would be ready to leave and get a job and be a grown up. And now it's almost here, and it's all hitting me..
This is such a huge era of my life coming to an end. I can remember the days before I left for Mizzou to head off to college.. How excited I was and scared and nervous... And then I remember leaving Mizzou. I turned in my withdrawl papers, and my mom and I pulled away from the admissions building.. I asked her, "If I'm sad, does that mean I made the wrong choice?"
I used to regret leaving Mizzou. I was too homesick to give it a chance. I only regret now the real reasons I left. Coming to ISU, that was a great decision. I've done more things here than I would have ever had the courage to do there. I've become confident and taken steps for my future. I refuse to be someone in the crowd.
But now here I am.. Trying to find a job. Ready to leave my friends and family behind to mold into this creature I feel I need to take the chance to become.
It's just such an indescribable feeling. To know this is ending in two weeks. I always thought I would be so excited, but I look back on the experiences I've had and can't help but get a tear in my eye... I've had my ups and downs, but this last semester has just been exactly how I would have wanted it. So much fun with my best friend, my best roommate ever.. So many experiences to look back on.. So many things that will make laugh when I tell my family about it someday as my parents have with me.
This is the end. I'll officially be an adult in two weeks. I hope I'm ready.