i'm a jerk
One more day of grounding left! I'm psyched. So many things to do next week; so little time!
Working both yesterday and today have helped me cope with the fact that I am grounded and can't do anything fun. Also, it has helped me think of Stephen less... which I suppose- is good. The less thinking I do, the less I will be missing him constantly.
It's been brought to my attention that I apparently have gotten a tad caught up with Stephen, and have maybe paid less attention to my friends as a consequence of it. This of course shocked me, because I never felt like anything of that nature was happening. I thought I had a good handle on everything.
And I felt content in thinking that I had everything all set. I always was afraid that once I got into a relationship that lasted more than a second, something would happen where my friends wouldn't want to be with me, or something like that. To hear that someone felt that I picked my boyfriend over them, it just kind of made me feel like an ass. I didn't want to be one of those jerks who did that to their friends ever.
But I don't know, I felt like everything was how it always was, even before Stephen. I HAVE felt like I've been hanging around somewhat different people than I used to, but I never thought it was a question of me being around Stephen too much. Usually when I am with him, all of our friends are around, so that's why I thought it was fine.
To quote Winnie the Pooh, which I never thought I would do in this lifetime...
oh, bother.
Working both yesterday and today have helped me cope with the fact that I am grounded and can't do anything fun. Also, it has helped me think of Stephen less... which I suppose- is good. The less thinking I do, the less I will be missing him constantly.
It's been brought to my attention that I apparently have gotten a tad caught up with Stephen, and have maybe paid less attention to my friends as a consequence of it. This of course shocked me, because I never felt like anything of that nature was happening. I thought I had a good handle on everything.
And I felt content in thinking that I had everything all set. I always was afraid that once I got into a relationship that lasted more than a second, something would happen where my friends wouldn't want to be with me, or something like that. To hear that someone felt that I picked my boyfriend over them, it just kind of made me feel like an ass. I didn't want to be one of those jerks who did that to their friends ever.
But I don't know, I felt like everything was how it always was, even before Stephen. I HAVE felt like I've been hanging around somewhat different people than I used to, but I never thought it was a question of me being around Stephen too much. Usually when I am with him, all of our friends are around, so that's why I thought it was fine.
To quote Winnie the Pooh, which I never thought I would do in this lifetime...
oh, bother.