Grrr
Well, only a few more weeks left. How do I know this because there are three more exams in class and then the final in Greek. Right now I'm really struggling and it feels terrible. After class on Friday (when we get our exams back) I just came back to my room, called mum and cried. I feel like such a failure and I feel like I'm letting my prof. down in addition to myself. It's horrible! I hate Greek, I start to dread it when I get up in the morning because I know that I'll make stupid mistakes in class and not understand any of the material. I seriously think that I have the worse grades out of the whole class. It's so hard too because I feel like I study so much and just when I get to the point that I might understand something I find out that I'm completely and utterly wrong. Why do I feel so stupid? Am I really that stupid? It seems like everyone else in my class understands what's going on- I'm just so dense!
What in God's name am I even going to do with a Classics major? There isn't a demand for people who know ancient Greek and Latin! What was I thinking;why don't I just become something useful and practical.i honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the year. It would even be easier to feel like I was doing well. I think I'm barely getting a "C" in the course and I only have 2 others that would contribute to my GPA this semester. So much for a good grad. school!!!
As you can tell I'm frustrated with this. And what makes it worse is that one minute I love it and the next I can't stand it. Why can't I just make up my goddamn mind?!
I wish Tom would come over now- I need someone to just listen to me bitch and make me feel better. I would ask Rose but she has a prospy and I don't want to give the wrong impression.( Rose, I'm not blaming you please don't feel bad I know you have other things going on right now-don't worry, I just need to complain.) Maybe I'll send him an e-mail.
Susan( my Greek prof.) must think I'm hopeless! I sure I'm the most pathetic student in her class!
It doesn't help that I'm reminded by my Mum that Bob got D's in his 1st year of Greek but that doesn't make me feel better about mine! I always want to get the best grades, but never end up doing as well as I want. I don't think that's too unreasonable.
Anyway, I have to stop this before I start to cry again.
What in God's name am I even going to do with a Classics major? There isn't a demand for people who know ancient Greek and Latin! What was I thinking;why don't I just become something useful and practical.i honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the year. It would even be easier to feel like I was doing well. I think I'm barely getting a "C" in the course and I only have 2 others that would contribute to my GPA this semester. So much for a good grad. school!!!
As you can tell I'm frustrated with this. And what makes it worse is that one minute I love it and the next I can't stand it. Why can't I just make up my goddamn mind?!
I wish Tom would come over now- I need someone to just listen to me bitch and make me feel better. I would ask Rose but she has a prospy and I don't want to give the wrong impression.( Rose, I'm not blaming you please don't feel bad I know you have other things going on right now-don't worry, I just need to complain.) Maybe I'll send him an e-mail.
Susan( my Greek prof.) must think I'm hopeless! I sure I'm the most pathetic student in her class!
It doesn't help that I'm reminded by my Mum that Bob got D's in his 1st year of Greek but that doesn't make me feel better about mine! I always want to get the best grades, but never end up doing as well as I want. I don't think that's too unreasonable.
Anyway, I have to stop this before I start to cry again.