its been more than a year...
wow... like i said last night, i really need to update more. i happened to run into lou at flannigans over thanksgiving and, as always, we joked about how i never write on this anymore... and ive always said its a powerful resource and i should... so maybe this time ill really work on bringing it back.
i dont even know where to start. i cant believe its senior year. i cant believe than in 6 months (167 days according the marist career services website), ill be graduating from college. i dont even know where the time has gone. its down to the crunch time where you want to enjoy every single minute.
im student teaching this semester. i spent half the semester in a self contained BOCES class with emotionally disturbed 8-10 year olds. i loved the kids, i loved being in the classroom, but i wish my teacher had done so much more. if anything, he made me realize how i dont want to run a classroom. my placement now is AWESOME. im in a transitional first in an amazing school district and, even though its general ed, i still like it. i come home happy and feel accomplished. i want to try to substitute there next semester. its so rewarding. i like special ed a lot though... makes the choices for post-grad really tough
speaking of which... i dont know what i want to do... i want to go to hawaii, and i know its a ridiculously awesome opportunity (id be there teaching special ed. for 2 years), but its SO hard to think about relocating... family... friends... everything... to the opposite side of the country. finances are an issue as always, but hello! palm trees! surfing! guh... and so many people are giving me the, 'dont leave me' guilt trip... and its hard. the thing is, i dont know what id do if i were to stay home. i cant move back in with my parents... at this point id rather eat dirt.
new topic
ive begun to realize how much i thoroughly enjoy everything i do at marist... whether it be kappa or dance or sga or work... i love it. i hate when other people dont put their all into things... i helped charter a new fraternity this semester... i feel like i not only helped these guys, i changed marist in some way... im social chair for kappa next semester, which makes me ecstatic... i dont know, its cool lol... ive always been a big involved dork, things havent changed, and they probably never will.
i dont want to get into much on my personal life like ive done in the past... im single... im adjusting in my own way... i miss a lot of things... i dont miss others... ive learned a lot... makes me realize what i do and dont want out of a relationship in the future... at least it makes things easier for decisions after marist :-)
my friends are fab. everyones getting past the stupid drama and realizing what really counts. id be nothing if it werent for them.
i got out of my target rut and im still in retail rut at victorias secret... i spend more than i make, but its fun and the staff is fun. ill be back there and at the preschool for break.
its snowing. i hate cold, which means i really dislike snow... especially when it means i have to drive in it... i just cleaned off my car. it was fab. snow does mean christmas is coming, thats fun.
im gonna actually attempt to get something done. sorry this wasnt the most stellar post, but its better than over a year of nothing :-)
love you all
alison*
i dont even know where to start. i cant believe its senior year. i cant believe than in 6 months (167 days according the marist career services website), ill be graduating from college. i dont even know where the time has gone. its down to the crunch time where you want to enjoy every single minute.
im student teaching this semester. i spent half the semester in a self contained BOCES class with emotionally disturbed 8-10 year olds. i loved the kids, i loved being in the classroom, but i wish my teacher had done so much more. if anything, he made me realize how i dont want to run a classroom. my placement now is AWESOME. im in a transitional first in an amazing school district and, even though its general ed, i still like it. i come home happy and feel accomplished. i want to try to substitute there next semester. its so rewarding. i like special ed a lot though... makes the choices for post-grad really tough
speaking of which... i dont know what i want to do... i want to go to hawaii, and i know its a ridiculously awesome opportunity (id be there teaching special ed. for 2 years), but its SO hard to think about relocating... family... friends... everything... to the opposite side of the country. finances are an issue as always, but hello! palm trees! surfing! guh... and so many people are giving me the, 'dont leave me' guilt trip... and its hard. the thing is, i dont know what id do if i were to stay home. i cant move back in with my parents... at this point id rather eat dirt.
new topic
ive begun to realize how much i thoroughly enjoy everything i do at marist... whether it be kappa or dance or sga or work... i love it. i hate when other people dont put their all into things... i helped charter a new fraternity this semester... i feel like i not only helped these guys, i changed marist in some way... im social chair for kappa next semester, which makes me ecstatic... i dont know, its cool lol... ive always been a big involved dork, things havent changed, and they probably never will.
i dont want to get into much on my personal life like ive done in the past... im single... im adjusting in my own way... i miss a lot of things... i dont miss others... ive learned a lot... makes me realize what i do and dont want out of a relationship in the future... at least it makes things easier for decisions after marist :-)
my friends are fab. everyones getting past the stupid drama and realizing what really counts. id be nothing if it werent for them.
i got out of my target rut and im still in retail rut at victorias secret... i spend more than i make, but its fun and the staff is fun. ill be back there and at the preschool for break.
its snowing. i hate cold, which means i really dislike snow... especially when it means i have to drive in it... i just cleaned off my car. it was fab. snow does mean christmas is coming, thats fun.
im gonna actually attempt to get something done. sorry this wasnt the most stellar post, but its better than over a year of nothing :-)
love you all
alison*