S54Lacrosse: aww, is someone frustraed?
yea thats one way to put it...
you ever just feel like youre not content in your own skin? no matter where you go? who you're with? thats me right now
dont get me wrong, things arent terrible. i still have friends that i can always count on, who always know when somethings wrong, who are always there to talk about it... and i have david, who, if i didnt have right now, i dont even know how id still be sane.
i just dont understand sometimes. some people can just be so cruel... intentionally or unintentionally... id never do anything like this to people i call my friends. but are we really friends? or just people who get along? why is everything with girls so malicious and DRAMATIC? pardon the cliche-ness of this but... CANT WE ALL JUST GET ALONG
or is getting along the whole problem? i dont know what i did to set things off the track, but right now im heading way south while everyone else is far into canada, if you get what im saying. or at least thats what it feels like... i feel like overnight i went from friend to 'person i deal with' and i think i know the reasoning, but i dont agree with it and i dont think the punishment fits the crime (so to speak)
going right along with the cliche-ness... im just in a really bad place right now
im home, i dont want to be here, for some aspects... and i dont really want to be at school either, for some aspects... and right now, i just really dont want to be me, in some aspects
and i think what bothers me most is that i cant even sort it out in my head, i cant find a niche to place it in, find a place in the back of my mind to bury it and come back to it when i really need to. its just a big black cloud looming over my head...
enough venting
i really want to go to a fall out boy/motion city show right now
i think ive been reading too many of pete's journal entries on falloutboyrock.com
i miss him, and his arm around me, and the heart he drew next to his autograph (and only on my poster) and how angry david got when i told him
what can i say... peter wentz and i had a moment
(sorry that sounds dellusional, but i really did meet him haha)
i wish i brought my sex and the city dvds home
i could use some samatha jones in my life right now
the semester finished up well, should be close to straight As... at least ive got that going for me
i heart kappa and im really excited for next semester
i cant wait for jersey on new years
ive been entered in a girlfriend keg stand contest against my will
anyone want to help me train for it? i could use a good, good drunk right now
S54Lacrosse: life is short, drink good beer
back to target tomorrow to work the crazy christmas rush. i might rip someone a new asshole if they piss me off. angry consumers are the last people i want to deal with.
i definately need the money though. 3 more presents to buy. then its time to start planning for valentines day and the 1 year (holy crappola)
Life is too precious to worry about stupid shit.
Have fun.
Get Drunk.
Fall in love.
Say what you wanna say.
Do what you wanna do.
Regret nothing.
Don't let people who don't matter bring you down.
nothing else to say
alison
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel
you ever just feel like youre not content in your own skin? no matter where you go? who you're with? thats me right now
dont get me wrong, things arent terrible. i still have friends that i can always count on, who always know when somethings wrong, who are always there to talk about it... and i have david, who, if i didnt have right now, i dont even know how id still be sane.
i just dont understand sometimes. some people can just be so cruel... intentionally or unintentionally... id never do anything like this to people i call my friends. but are we really friends? or just people who get along? why is everything with girls so malicious and DRAMATIC? pardon the cliche-ness of this but... CANT WE ALL JUST GET ALONG
or is getting along the whole problem? i dont know what i did to set things off the track, but right now im heading way south while everyone else is far into canada, if you get what im saying. or at least thats what it feels like... i feel like overnight i went from friend to 'person i deal with' and i think i know the reasoning, but i dont agree with it and i dont think the punishment fits the crime (so to speak)
going right along with the cliche-ness... im just in a really bad place right now
im home, i dont want to be here, for some aspects... and i dont really want to be at school either, for some aspects... and right now, i just really dont want to be me, in some aspects
and i think what bothers me most is that i cant even sort it out in my head, i cant find a niche to place it in, find a place in the back of my mind to bury it and come back to it when i really need to. its just a big black cloud looming over my head...
enough venting
i really want to go to a fall out boy/motion city show right now
i think ive been reading too many of pete's journal entries on falloutboyrock.com
i miss him, and his arm around me, and the heart he drew next to his autograph (and only on my poster) and how angry david got when i told him
what can i say... peter wentz and i had a moment
(sorry that sounds dellusional, but i really did meet him haha)
i wish i brought my sex and the city dvds home
i could use some samatha jones in my life right now
the semester finished up well, should be close to straight As... at least ive got that going for me
i heart kappa and im really excited for next semester
i cant wait for jersey on new years
ive been entered in a girlfriend keg stand contest against my will
anyone want to help me train for it? i could use a good, good drunk right now
S54Lacrosse: life is short, drink good beer
back to target tomorrow to work the crazy christmas rush. i might rip someone a new asshole if they piss me off. angry consumers are the last people i want to deal with.
i definately need the money though. 3 more presents to buy. then its time to start planning for valentines day and the 1 year (holy crappola)
Life is too precious to worry about stupid shit.
Have fun.
Get Drunk.
Fall in love.
Say what you wanna say.
Do what you wanna do.
Regret nothing.
Don't let people who don't matter bring you down.
nothing else to say
alison
I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel