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I'm kinda having a scared night tonight. I'm scared that there is really something seriously wrong with me physically. I'm scared that it's all in my head which means there is something really wrong with me emotionally. Which is what they are trying to tell me. I don't want to depend on medication to stay happy. I want to depend on me. I'm scared of death....my own..and more so of those I love. I'm so scared of loss! I'm scared the man I love will never love me back. I'm scared that the mistakes I'm making today are gonna set my path for tomorrow. I'm afraid I won't be able to overcome. I'm scared that I will never be happy when I look in the mirror. I'm scared that there is something wrong with me that I push guys away..just ones I want to be friends with..I always seem to say or do something wrong. I'm scared of yesterday but just as scared of tomorrow. I'm scared of my endless trip at school but also scared I will never pursue life from my comfort zone. Most of all....I'm scared of letting my fears take over my life!