What you thought was real in life, somehow steer you wrong
So I've been struggling with the idea of moving home. Not right now (mostly because I have a lease until this time next year) but after my lease is up. I won't graduate at the end of this year even though it's my 4th (senior) year due to the changing major thing. But I've realized that I'm much happier when I'm home. Don't get me wrong, I love Purdue and my friends here and the bars here but I am happiest and most productive when I am close to my family. Growing up, the goal of most of my friends was merely just to get the hell away from the markleville/pendleton/anderson area and stay away. Well, I'm not gonna lie..I wasn't one of those people! I love my hometown and I have every intention of living in that area the rest of my life. I just feel like everything was going in a certain direction and I just woke up one day and realized that it was the completely wrong path for me. So my current plan: transfer to IUPUI either next year or the spring semester and go home. However I have no idea where I will live. Now, I am happiest around my family but not necessarily living with them. One thing I have learned being on my own...it's hard to go back to living with your parents when you develop your own living habits!
I spent tuesday and wednesday with one of my best friends and we did a lot of talking about love. And seriously...its such a blinding emotion. She just currently ended a year long relationship and in our 2 days together we spent a lot of time with my first love. So with the emotion so fresh in both of our hearts we tried to figure it out. I just can't understand how your mind and heart can work together to make you act and feel a certain way. For example, my first love, I have NO problems noticing and/or pointing out his many faults but why do they not phase me when I can have a perfectly nice guy ask me out and I turn him down for some petty reason. I don't know if this makes since but I just don't understand how I can be around a great guy who possesses everything I want in a guy and feel nothing yet stand beside someone who has hurt me over and over and my heart nearly bursts out of my chest....it just doesn't make since! Sorry so sappy...just been in that kinda mood lately!
I spent tuesday and wednesday with one of my best friends and we did a lot of talking about love. And seriously...its such a blinding emotion. She just currently ended a year long relationship and in our 2 days together we spent a lot of time with my first love. So with the emotion so fresh in both of our hearts we tried to figure it out. I just can't understand how your mind and heart can work together to make you act and feel a certain way. For example, my first love, I have NO problems noticing and/or pointing out his many faults but why do they not phase me when I can have a perfectly nice guy ask me out and I turn him down for some petty reason. I don't know if this makes since but I just don't understand how I can be around a great guy who possesses everything I want in a guy and feel nothing yet stand beside someone who has hurt me over and over and my heart nearly bursts out of my chest....it just doesn't make since! Sorry so sappy...just been in that kinda mood lately!