I'm a terrible person
I want to be one of those people who write genius things when they're sad. I'm all out of words. Where has my heart gone? I don't miss anything anymore. I never know how I feel. My notebook is full of only what I used to feel. I want to go back to when I can't even remember now. When I was in Middle School and I thought life was perfect. How naive I was... Maybe that's what hurts me the most...Not knowing. I want to say I don't care, but the truth is I care too much. I care that you are hurting and I care that he left me and never really gave a shit about me. I would love to just wake up and not think about the same things that kill me each and every day.
I'm about to give up again and just let things unravel or end. I really just need to shut the fuck up and only worry about school. Everyday I'm putting on that smile and you all think I'm the happiest I have ever been. =]
