while you wonder what else you're doing wrong
I don't know what happened to me. I don't know where I went. I think I'm dead. I just wake up and do what I'm supposed to. I can't enjoy anything for more than 5 minutes. I feel like I'm drugged or just in a really long dream. I've felt like this for quite sometime then it stopped, but now it's back again. I keep buying things to make myself feel better but even after getting a BMW I still feel the same. Now I have another thing to hate, being broke. I do it to myself. I'm pathetic. I need help. I'm jealous of your happiness and your love. I'm in love with what used to be and I will never get it back. Broken hearted forever I swear. I need to live again before I just end it.