so much to think about..... :/
hey everyone NO i didnt die:-D
things have been kind of weird this week...like peoples moods..mostly mine but i stick with the IM A GIRL I CAN DO THAT thing some call it a cop-out i call it mind your own fucking bussiness:-D see what i mean jezzzzzz! have you every known someone who is pretty cool to talk to in person but online you wanna jump threw the screen and beat them? yea im having a lil bit of that right now wow that convo just got really weird.....YUCK why are you sending me this shit?!??!
so my body still is all kind of fucked and im ready to say fuck it im done....but i know i wont and i am really working on making myself better right now but i dont know what else to do i feel like once again im running in fucking circles! AHHHHHH and i wish that my dad would just talk to me and not yell at me i know taht he doesnt have the answers and shit but it would be nice just once if he could shut up and say everything will be ok im here for you....ok yea i knwo how lifetime movie does that sound but ya know sometime....ok once in my life it would be nice to have taht kind of dad....boy i really make him sound like an ass and in some ways he deff is but i know he loves me and will never trun his back on me hes just a guy and doesnt think and that is something taht will never change
in other news my "dating situation" i dont know what to call it seems to be a lil rocky right now :( but its prolly just me being a freak about shit. i dont know i really really like him a lot hes awesome but i know he has a lot on his mind right now and i DO NOT wanna have to be something else he has to worry about ya know? i love whatever we have going on im not to sure what it is all i know is i dont have any intrest in dating anyone else im very happy i feel soo very comfy and free...i hope that things are the same on the other end...i just feel like im being pushed away right now and i know he is just going threw some shit and hes got lots on his mind i guess i have a lot on my mind too and there are things i wanna say to but im afraid it will come across to girlfriendish or to much like a jealousy thing...ithink i just need some reassurance cauz us girls we need that when things feel really shity.....but eh what can you do? i just wanna crawl in his bed and be held that would make everything all right....wow super corny i know and i dont care im pmsing ahhh its oooo late and i cant sleep! and i need to get up and do some laundry so im goign i hope austin wont talk in his sleep tonight i had enough with the mooing last night
i just wish i knew the future
talk to yall soon miss and love you all
any adivce?
Ali
things have been kind of weird this week...like peoples moods..mostly mine but i stick with the IM A GIRL I CAN DO THAT thing some call it a cop-out i call it mind your own fucking bussiness:-D see what i mean jezzzzzz! have you every known someone who is pretty cool to talk to in person but online you wanna jump threw the screen and beat them? yea im having a lil bit of that right now wow that convo just got really weird.....YUCK why are you sending me this shit?!??!
so my body still is all kind of fucked and im ready to say fuck it im done....but i know i wont and i am really working on making myself better right now but i dont know what else to do i feel like once again im running in fucking circles! AHHHHHH and i wish that my dad would just talk to me and not yell at me i know taht he doesnt have the answers and shit but it would be nice just once if he could shut up and say everything will be ok im here for you....ok yea i knwo how lifetime movie does that sound but ya know sometime....ok once in my life it would be nice to have taht kind of dad....boy i really make him sound like an ass and in some ways he deff is but i know he loves me and will never trun his back on me hes just a guy and doesnt think and that is something taht will never change
in other news my "dating situation" i dont know what to call it seems to be a lil rocky right now :( but its prolly just me being a freak about shit. i dont know i really really like him a lot hes awesome but i know he has a lot on his mind right now and i DO NOT wanna have to be something else he has to worry about ya know? i love whatever we have going on im not to sure what it is all i know is i dont have any intrest in dating anyone else im very happy i feel soo very comfy and free...i hope that things are the same on the other end...i just feel like im being pushed away right now and i know he is just going threw some shit and hes got lots on his mind i guess i have a lot on my mind too and there are things i wanna say to but im afraid it will come across to girlfriendish or to much like a jealousy thing...ithink i just need some reassurance cauz us girls we need that when things feel really shity.....but eh what can you do? i just wanna crawl in his bed and be held that would make everything all right....wow super corny i know and i dont care im pmsing ahhh its oooo late and i cant sleep! and i need to get up and do some laundry so im goign i hope austin wont talk in his sleep tonight i had enough with the mooing last night
i just wish i knew the future
talk to yall soon miss and love you all
any adivce?
Ali