Procrastination results in memes...
Idea taken from errant_evermore, who borrowed it from telaryn and mizzy2k respectively. :)
Pick any passage of 500 words or less from any fanfic I’ve written, and comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you the equivalent of a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what’s going on in the ( Read more... )
Pick any passage of 500 words or less from any fanfic I’ve written, and comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you the equivalent of a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what’s going on in the ( Read more... )
“God looks at our actions and judges. The details matter.”
This line was why I wanted to write this. It's an echo of what Father Paul told Nate in "The Miracle Job," and I felt it was a very powerful statement on the idea of morality and how the little things matter just as much as the big things.
I felt it applied here, especially after the events of "The Last Dam Job," because even though Nate didn't pull the trigger, he stood there and laid out the reasons why Latimer and Dubenich should want the other dead. Nate pretty much knew the outcome, and despite the fact that the show can say "well, he didn't really kill anyone," the fact remains that Nate's intentions very much involved Dubenich and Latimer ending up dead.
She sees his hand tighten around his glass. She’s been waiting for this guilt because it’s as much a constant as the alcohol or control issues. She would have been fine if he had killed Dubenich or Latimer; but she knows she would be talking a gun out of his mouth instead of a bottle out of his hand.
Nate obviously has issues with guilt. I could list all the evidence, but that would take way too long. But, I always assume that if I'm aware of it, then Sophie would be as well, because she knows Nate better than anyone else knows him, except maybe Maggie, and I think Sophie knows Nate better than she knows anyone else. And, I think that where Sophie is concerned, she could have cared less about what happened to Dubenich and Latimer. Her concern was completely about what killing those two would do to Nate.
And, murdering someone else would destroy Nate. He barely managed to survive losing his son, and I think murder would push him over the edge. And because most branches of Christianity see suicide as an almost unforgivable sin (I'm not Catholic, I don't know what the views are there; I'm operating on my experience as a Methodist and many very serious discussions I have had with Christian friends about suicide and how it will damn you to hell; something I don't agree with, mostly because I'm aware of how awful your mental state is for you to get to that point since I've been there), I can really see Nate deciding that he's not worth saving and just ending everything right there.
(Terribly sorry about that long-ass sentence.)
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