Words you never want to Hear

[alimira]

Got a call from my family tonight ... House is on fire dont know how bad or who is inside... Well hour latter everyone is ok .. and no one got hurt. So now I get to be depressed over everything that I own.. All my dolls everyone of them GONE! All the christmas present that my mom was holding GONE! CLothes Toys Books All of my figures GONE!! I know it is so fucking sick to be upset over a few things when my family is ok. But Damn I had to lose everything once before .... all my dolls melted togather there hair all one blacked mass there face fussed togather like the elephant children took me years to keep anything after that and now I have to deal with it again. Will they even be replaced? Hell does anyone even fucking care about some 20Somethings little toys? Is it ok to feel sorry for yourself when at least I still have a place to live and my kids are happy and werent there? My kids are upset things of theres were over there. I am upset. Mark is upset. Hopeing my dad is ok .. i havent heard from them yet just Samantha ... What if he has a heart attack what if the anourism (sp?) breaks .. he will die right then with no really warning. They have had to go thur this before they shouldnt be having to go thur it again. I guess it is just silly little things and means nothing compaired to being alive and all that .. but it hurts to see the things you care about and stuff that has been important to you burned chared and covered in water.
oh well going to try and keep from breaking down in front of the kids.. not much else to say
Merry Christmas (yeah right)
Love and Light