whatever

[alilsouthofhevn]

sitting on the pavement i thought about a lot. times of joy and times of pain and everything in between. times when i was little and times like now and how much it all has changed. i'm a stronger person but one thing after another has slowly broken me down. i'm faceless and hollow and live in a world where i don't matter. no one in this world matters unless you're rich or famous or have all the material things you have ever dreamed of and flash them for all to see. where is the warmth that this world suposedly has. its deffinately not in the people. we kill. destruct. demolish. cause pain. fight. bring life only to not treat it right. and rebuild just to do it all over again. people are grief stricken and in poverty living on the streets. they're on wellfare barely able to buy groceries to keep their children alive. drug addicts run on the streets searching and doing everything they can for just one more hit, or one more bump, or one more injection. what do people do? nothing. i don't do a damn thing. you don't do anything. why? because no one really honestly cares that much. just as long as its not you or i.. it doesn't matter. the government says they're working to fix these problems but they haven't done anything either. fuck the government. they seek and destroy just like everyone elese. this is human nature i guess. or is it? was it just around people so much that its what they learn. do they learn from parents or where they live and their surroundings? or is it from tv or was it music? who knows. i don't.

i don't know the point of this entry. i really honestly don't. it changed from me talking about myself into me talking about a lot of different things. i couldn't keep my mind on a one way track about anything. it just kept jumping around. none of that may make sense and its all just random and jumps around and it deffinately doesn't make a point but oh well i guess. i didn't finish it for those reasons.

i'm hungry.