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i hadnt realized that the older kids were so hostile towards the younger ones. its obvious they speak without thinking sometimes but maybe i really am not wanted around. why be far from me to act my age. and speaking of my age lets name the ppl i no that are my age. sara whos busy with her bf(understandable), kate, whos whos nos where), a bunch of random long list of band kids that i only no there names, max the vampire boy, angsty austin, bonnie (whos ok), casey who is busy with his gf (understandable), dale who is busy with her bf (undestandable), bunch of indian kids who i really dont think exist outside of school (rashmi lives at the library), theres warren whos busy with his gf and we cant seem to stay talking for more than 1 to 2 weeks at a time (understandable to the gf), theres that jeff kid whos in my homeroom, caitlin who i dont like even looking at, cassy who i really dont talk to, some mormon catherine across the way whos a bit weird (not cuz shes mormon but just cuz),theres kelsey but i really dont see her to often. and really from there everyone is a senior or up....maybe not counting terry and mini bort. now lets step back and look at the pretty picture i made. i think it explains very well y i dont really get along with the ppl who are my own age. now explaining y i get along with older kids, go figure, w/e, i really dont care about that. and really wat am i going to learn from some stupid high school kid crying that he hates his life wen he has a roof over his head and food on the table and a car in the garage? nothing cuz im sitting in the same boat. it fact its a bloody cruise liner. if my mother is not going to teach me anything about life and how im supposed to get along i have to learn from someone. or a multitude of older ppl who have already been through it. so excuse me for wanting to learn to from ppls mistakes. and thats not even the real point. i choose my friends cuz like hanging around them. they have something special that i like. ok now im just getting sentimental. w/e kids, im outsy.