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yeah theres a reoccurring theme in my life called jen gets depressed over stupid stuff. [c if u can fit that into a literary analysis paper.]
but yeah my main probs are that im bored and lonely. i could now say, "oh well that life wat ya gonna do about it." but im not going to say that. cuz there probably is something i can do.
idk maybe i jsut need something to remind me that im alive. ya no like a walk in a freezing cold shower at night.
...6 months since something real. in real life terms that probably not that long but watev. and its not even really depression over the pt that there isnt a guy. it that theres no one around. everyone is doing soemthing it seems but thats wat i hate about the holidays most. everyone thinks its a time where family should get together and pretend like they care. that a waste of a good 2 week break if u ask me.
if i had something to occupy my mind right now ppl wouldnt even really matter. but i dont. and im sitting in my pj's in a dark room with a heater. and ill actually have to get ready some time today cuz im eating wtih bradford. and hell be like jennifer, wats wrong. and ill have to explain to another person. conversations where me being sad doesnt come up are nice.
and i dont want it to be "oh well" i dont want it to be "thats just life" i wanna do something and i just feel trapped. roar and now im sounding emo again!!!! fish and chips on my shoulders!!!!!! i might as well take my spork, my blanket, and box of tissues and treck into my closet. eegad this is not becoming of me. snap outta it jen ure losing ur mind. aahhhhh!!!!
......can u feel the stress and conflict? i can.
but yeah my main probs are that im bored and lonely. i could now say, "oh well that life wat ya gonna do about it." but im not going to say that. cuz there probably is something i can do.
idk maybe i jsut need something to remind me that im alive. ya no like a walk in a freezing cold shower at night.
...6 months since something real. in real life terms that probably not that long but watev. and its not even really depression over the pt that there isnt a guy. it that theres no one around. everyone is doing soemthing it seems but thats wat i hate about the holidays most. everyone thinks its a time where family should get together and pretend like they care. that a waste of a good 2 week break if u ask me.
if i had something to occupy my mind right now ppl wouldnt even really matter. but i dont. and im sitting in my pj's in a dark room with a heater. and ill actually have to get ready some time today cuz im eating wtih bradford. and hell be like jennifer, wats wrong. and ill have to explain to another person. conversations where me being sad doesnt come up are nice.
and i dont want it to be "oh well" i dont want it to be "thats just life" i wanna do something and i just feel trapped. roar and now im sounding emo again!!!! fish and chips on my shoulders!!!!!! i might as well take my spork, my blanket, and box of tissues and treck into my closet. eegad this is not becoming of me. snap outta it jen ure losing ur mind. aahhhhh!!!!
......can u feel the stress and conflict? i can.