life sucks, but it still goes on
today isn't one of those days of revelation. it's just one of those days where you have to admit that what you've been trying to avoid is unavoidable. it's far better to just suck it up and get it over with.
1) it's time to get back to life. by that, i mean it's time to get back to some semblance of a schedule. i need to wake up in the morning, shower, breakfast, do something, lunch, continue to do something, dinner, keep on doing something, and cap it off with going to bed before midnight. this sitting around and watching tv or surfing the internet is getting old. i'm bored, and therefore, i'm thinking about stuff that i don't need to think or worry about right now. i need to get back to normal. the heating lap casting its orange glow over my couch potato ass parked on the sofa has totally shriveled and dried up my desire to do nothing. it's past time to do something. anything at all right now counts.
2) it is past time to sit down and work on my thesis. i was told today that i was going to get pushed through the system. since i was sick, the sooner i get it done, the easier it will be to graduate. given that piece of encouragement, i think my do somethings will be writting my thesis.
3) my dad is a dick, and he is not worth getting sick over. i need to find someone to talk to in order to deal with all of my issues. between the hospital, dad, and my now long term illness, i have a lot of stuff brewing that i am avoiding. i need to realize that it's there instead of waiting 6 months and having it hit me like a log truck around a blind curve in the middle of a thunderstorm at night. i think you get my drift on that.
i'm sure there is more that i've been avoiding. you all know that i'm the queen of avoidance. i'd rather have everything be all hunky-dory or assume that it is than deal with it. but it is high time that i just take it and move on. so day by day, here goes.
1) it's time to get back to life. by that, i mean it's time to get back to some semblance of a schedule. i need to wake up in the morning, shower, breakfast, do something, lunch, continue to do something, dinner, keep on doing something, and cap it off with going to bed before midnight. this sitting around and watching tv or surfing the internet is getting old. i'm bored, and therefore, i'm thinking about stuff that i don't need to think or worry about right now. i need to get back to normal. the heating lap casting its orange glow over my couch potato ass parked on the sofa has totally shriveled and dried up my desire to do nothing. it's past time to do something. anything at all right now counts.
2) it is past time to sit down and work on my thesis. i was told today that i was going to get pushed through the system. since i was sick, the sooner i get it done, the easier it will be to graduate. given that piece of encouragement, i think my do somethings will be writting my thesis.
3) my dad is a dick, and he is not worth getting sick over. i need to find someone to talk to in order to deal with all of my issues. between the hospital, dad, and my now long term illness, i have a lot of stuff brewing that i am avoiding. i need to realize that it's there instead of waiting 6 months and having it hit me like a log truck around a blind curve in the middle of a thunderstorm at night. i think you get my drift on that.
i'm sure there is more that i've been avoiding. you all know that i'm the queen of avoidance. i'd rather have everything be all hunky-dory or assume that it is than deal with it. but it is high time that i just take it and move on. so day by day, here goes.