"Ann's Big Bash"
Ann had her party yesterday. I don't know where to begin, so I'll just describe what comes to me.
I thought it was shitty that some of the teachers just stood back and said nothing to her. Some left without saying goodbye. She came in and she could barely walk. her face was swollen. She is slowly going blind. She would have icing all over her face when eating her cake without wiping it off. She didn't say much.
It was interesting to see how her friends acted. Eleven years old. I can't help but wonder what they're thinking. I never imagined losing a friend when I was their age, especially not to this disease. I think what chilled me the most was when her friends were drawing on the board with expo markers, and she wanted to join in. She wrote "Ann waz here" with her left hand, and they (Ann included) all laughed at how unsteady her non-dominant hand was. The "a" was backwards, which confirmed the extent of her brain damage from her brain tumor. Abi asked her, "Why can't you use your right hand?" She looked up at me directly after saying it, and I gave her a look like, "Duh!" I shouldn't have reacted like that, but none of us were ourselves. Barysh said, "How do I say this... it will get better soon. My cousin is sick in her hip and her hand got better eventually."
I'm proud of the kids for showing her a happy time and not freaking out too much. Although it took them a while to start talking, no one cried and no one indicated how close it is to the end. I'm glad I got to see her one last time.
I'm not sure what else to say.
I thought it was shitty that some of the teachers just stood back and said nothing to her. Some left without saying goodbye. She came in and she could barely walk. her face was swollen. She is slowly going blind. She would have icing all over her face when eating her cake without wiping it off. She didn't say much.
It was interesting to see how her friends acted. Eleven years old. I can't help but wonder what they're thinking. I never imagined losing a friend when I was their age, especially not to this disease. I think what chilled me the most was when her friends were drawing on the board with expo markers, and she wanted to join in. She wrote "Ann waz here" with her left hand, and they (Ann included) all laughed at how unsteady her non-dominant hand was. The "a" was backwards, which confirmed the extent of her brain damage from her brain tumor. Abi asked her, "Why can't you use your right hand?" She looked up at me directly after saying it, and I gave her a look like, "Duh!" I shouldn't have reacted like that, but none of us were ourselves. Barysh said, "How do I say this... it will get better soon. My cousin is sick in her hip and her hand got better eventually."
I'm proud of the kids for showing her a happy time and not freaking out too much. Although it took them a while to start talking, no one cried and no one indicated how close it is to the end. I'm glad I got to see her one last time.
I'm not sure what else to say.