Aug 11, 2005 14:52
I am so not ready to be gone for the next three weeks, but oh fucking well. I will make it work out. I am excited to get the fuck out of here for a long while, even though I am going to be back on Tuesday for about 12 hours before I leave again. So for the next 4 days it will be the motorcycle and the UP.
I have spent some time thinking about things and seeing all the people I have run into over the past few weeks I just chuckle. Its amazing how people in your life is like a revolving door. I don't know if I am worse than most people or seem to be better than some, but contantly I am letting people in my life while I am watching others leave. I guess this goes back down to my whole analysis of people.
No matter what a person does it is to serve some purpose that will benefit them. If you ever wonder why people act why they do, just figure out what benefits they want and or need. Deep down inside our whole human contact with others is a way to benefit ourself in some way. Once you figure this out it becomes real easy to understand people and the reasons they act. We all do it. My biggest fault is I have let people walk out of my life without trying to stop them. Its always the ones you never see that you still wonder about. Yet, that person wouldn't have walked out if they thought you had some benefit for them. I know it sounds cold, but truely I believe that it is 100% correct. Once you figure that out, things come easy. You show people some of the benefit they want, and in return you can get what you want in return. That is truely how you can manipulate people, by letting them think that they are getting what they want and need in return even though you have no intention of giving it.
Anyways, I digress. This was talking about people walking in and out of your life. Its just weird for me seeing people after a few years. Its always fun laughing about things in the past, but with people from the past that seems to be the only benefit. They are good for a laugh, but usually there is a reason they have walked through the revolving door. There are only a few people who I wouldn't let walk out that door. Mostly because I know in the end of things they can and will be replaced by someone walking back in. The people I will never let walk out are: Chris, Corey, and Tree. Yet all those are people I have known for a while. It seems that lately people aren't worth holding on to. I might have found one more to hold on to, but we will see where that goes. Its kind of hard when I am going to be gone for three weeks to judge if the person is worth it.
Well I am going to jet. I will have some more fun pictures from the UP. Maybe I will put them on here. Then again, prolly not.
Peace Out Y'all
Light
"In reflecting back on my life, I learned one thing about woman. They are the most evil creatures on the whole earth, but we gotta love them" Woody