here i am again alone sitting infront of the compute typing away
so here i am. Well. I guess thats an understatement because if i wasnt here id be dead. and then i wouldnt be here to type this.
I wish the space between my brain and my heart were alot more closer than it realy is. but then again if they were closer i think that id have alot more headaches due to the constant pounding.
I remember at night it would be so quiet in my room I would listen to my heart beat untill i fell asleep. Most of the time i would have a recurring dream where I was falling from the sky. and with evey beat I felt like something was attacking me. and i would wake up.
I had a dream about my internship last night. It was a scarry dream. I dreamnt that I was in the vault with the artwork and I left to get a drink because i did not know what do do because karen shafts had left to go to a meeting and said she would be back in an hour. A man who scares me I forgot who his name was at the internship meeting. the owner of the lybrary came up to me and said "What are you doing, your supposed to be doing work, why arnt you working, get back over there. give me that drink, what are you stupid" and i was all but shocked. I had the sense of feeling like a slacker. He kept close watch on me as i went through the various art works. but i had no idea what i was doing becaue karen had left. he was forcefull and made me leave because i didnt know what i was doing.
It was a scarry dream. because most of my dreams come true in a sense. I usually have a dayjavou and what ever happened happens but not to me. usually someone close by to me and i know exactly what has happened to them and how it happened. its kind of like a sixth sense.
I hope that the internship goes all right this semester. I know god probably scares me in my dreams so that i stay on top of things and dont mess things up.
he has always been there for me but sometimes I feel like ive hurt him.
school has shown me alot of ups and downs. and i think that life is just one giant rolercoaster. and im just going to grab on and have the ride of my life. because i know that its going to go by fast.
I wish the space between my brain and my heart were alot more closer than it realy is. but then again if they were closer i think that id have alot more headaches due to the constant pounding.
I remember at night it would be so quiet in my room I would listen to my heart beat untill i fell asleep. Most of the time i would have a recurring dream where I was falling from the sky. and with evey beat I felt like something was attacking me. and i would wake up.
I had a dream about my internship last night. It was a scarry dream. I dreamnt that I was in the vault with the artwork and I left to get a drink because i did not know what do do because karen shafts had left to go to a meeting and said she would be back in an hour. A man who scares me I forgot who his name was at the internship meeting. the owner of the lybrary came up to me and said "What are you doing, your supposed to be doing work, why arnt you working, get back over there. give me that drink, what are you stupid" and i was all but shocked. I had the sense of feeling like a slacker. He kept close watch on me as i went through the various art works. but i had no idea what i was doing becaue karen had left. he was forcefull and made me leave because i didnt know what i was doing.
It was a scarry dream. because most of my dreams come true in a sense. I usually have a dayjavou and what ever happened happens but not to me. usually someone close by to me and i know exactly what has happened to them and how it happened. its kind of like a sixth sense.
I hope that the internship goes all right this semester. I know god probably scares me in my dreams so that i stay on top of things and dont mess things up.
he has always been there for me but sometimes I feel like ive hurt him.
school has shown me alot of ups and downs. and i think that life is just one giant rolercoaster. and im just going to grab on and have the ride of my life. because i know that its going to go by fast.